[squid136]

I'm a new member, so hopefully I am doing this right. Basically within one year I had 2 miscarriages with my husband of 11 years, then out of the blue he says our relationship is over, then within a couple of days of me moving out, (in our neighborhood there were about 6 couples, as groups we all would go camping together, bbq's, all go out to eat together, etc) one of these couples mentioned, who was I thought was my friend announces she's leaving her husband & you guessed it moves into my house as soon as I had left. Then not even one month of them being together she gets pregnant. And also forgot to mention she left the three kids she has with her husband when she moved in with my husband, he made it very known to everyone that he hated her brats and they would never be living in his house, and I guess she was ok with that cause she left them. So now she is pregnant, I had a son from my first marriage and his real dad had nothing to do with him, so this man was my son's father, raised him for 11 years , this is who he called dad. Until I was able to find a place and get stable, we agreed my son would continue to live with him, mind you I was getting set up literally about 2 mins away at a house, well then he ended up kicking his "son" out. So now I am trying to recover from all this and dealing with my son's feelings of betrayal and him trying to help me when all I do is cry... Then this march my son, my only child who had just turned 18 died. My ex mean while bought another new house for them, their child was recently born, and he has maybe contacted twice since "our" son died. I literally mean it when Is say I have no family surviving to turn to, our so called friends we had said they would be here for me after the breakup & my son's death and have not attempted to call, write, nothing, but come to find out have decided, contrary to what they all said in the begging have now said we are just forgetting about what these 2 did and are invited to each others houses for bbq's, parties, all kinds of things, but have made it obvious they want nothing to do with me anymore. I have suffered so much hurt within this year, I am going to my psychiatrist and have been on several medications, but nothing is getting better. I keep thinking nothing more can happen, and boom, something else. I am so empty, so hurt, so disappointed, and have learned when really bad times happen, you quickly learn who your true friends are and people show their true colors. I have run out of hope, and unless you have lost a child, I can't begin to describe the hurt & sadness and how emtpy I feel without him. I seemed to have run out of hope of things getting better.

[stefano]

It's an overwhelming amount of disgrace. I really don't know what to say. You must be very strong if you are still alive.

I hope your huge credit with luck will get refunded soon

[squid136]

thank you for the kind words and I pray for some good 2 come my way every day, hopefully soon ...

[Wants2Fly]

Hello Ktm -- This is a lot of loss to have to bear. Do you live in an area when you can get into a grief counseling or grief support group?

I understand about having no one to turn to. Me too. Then, when we are down, it is especially hard to reach out and start to form new supportive relationships.

I am so very sorry that this happened to you. Hugs and hugs.

[pachyderm]

> I pray for some good 2 come my way...

Maybe it has started to come now that you are here...

[MotherMarcus]

I can't truly understand what you're going through, just know we are here for you.

MM

[HoosierGal]

<font color="purple"> I'm so sorry these things happened to you. </font> :