What is going on and how can i stop it already?

It's been awhile since i posted here. I just started seeing a shrink. Today was my 2nd session. And, I couldn't tell her anything. How does one talk to someone they don't know about stuff they NEVER talk to anyone about ,ever?

So now, I'm supposed to write down whatever and I don't think i can even do that...and ordinarily, i love writing. I can't find the words to write what she wants or needs to hear/know.
She even suggested my bringing in some of my art work even after i told her i only have half started stuff. But I'm not doing that because that's private stuff and i don't and can't share it. And i'm sure she wouldn't be interested if it weren't her job to be attentive and pretend to be itnerested.

Ever since I was at my shrink's office, I've been restless, scatterbrained, and not feeling right. I'm not a crier and that's all i want to do. And i feel like I'm not even in my body which i know is totally ridiculous and impossible.

I don't know what to do. I just want to go back to being like i used to be and the way i used to feel.

I don't see how talking about whatever is supposed to help anything. I want it to help. But how can it when one cant even talk and say whatever it is that needs to be said ?

I just feel so lost and don't know what to do. Or i don't want to do what I should do because i know that it's just words and talk anyway.....

I think you have the right to say what you will and won't write about and talk about. If you don't feel comfortable taking your private stuff in then say so. My experience of talk therapy has just been that, talk. I does work over time but takes lots of time. If you feel this person is infringing on yoru privacy then you need to either talk about that or change your shrink?

The first few times are hard... I felt like that, it's not easy to talk about something you've never talked about, or is personal, but never be pushed into something if you don't want to or aren't ready
Try going another few times and you will decide for yourself if you think it's going to help you, but it does take time
Sometimes just changing therapists works

I hope it works out for you,
Molly