Just a kind of rant I suppose

I have soooo much work to do at university. I still haven't completed an essay due two weeks ago. For next week, I have to: write an essay in French, translate a text from English into German, prepare a speech on The Holocaust. For the week after, I have to: write an essay in German, prepare a speech in French, do a Study Skills assignment which involves writing out an essay plan and giving an example of note-taking technique, prepare another speech in French, and study for an important grammar test which takes place that week.

That is just... so much work for me.

I'm finding it so difficult to motivate myself. I see getting to my classes as an achievement. Yet I have to do all this work!

I have been seeing my counsellor now for four sessions. She has been trying to encourage me to join a depression group, a self-confidence and self-esteem group and a relaxation group. She has mentioned them every meeting and now I feel under pressure from her to join them. I will probably join the first two groups. She is also trying to get me to see my doctor. I suppose I will go today, but I don't even know where the doctor's is.

Also, I find it difficult to concentrate recently, and my thinking is unclear and kind of hazy. Sometimes I do things without actually realizing it and when I go to do it again a few minutes later I've found I've already done it. I don't know, I guess I'm just kind of confused recently.

In case people are wondering, I can't restart this year again, I can't get extensions to the essays I have to do, and the only thing I can do is actually do them .