[stephiifaye92]

Well this blows. Im getting evicted soon, me my dad and the guy we live with. I dont know if we're going to go back to MA again, but strangely I really dont want to. I never wanted to come here, and now that I might be leaving, I dont want to go back. Strange how things work out, huh? I dont know, I guess this is just a rant or something, just so I can get everything out of my system. All my friends in MA would tell me that Im ****ing crazy and that theres no way I could want to stay. But I do, I mean, Ive made it this long, I can make it a little longer, right?
I mean, I actually have more friends up here, than in Massachusetts. Which is strange.
I'm just realizing that the people up here have been here for me for more important things than my friends of many years have. They mean a lot to me, the people up here. I mean...I just dont want to go. I wish I could just wake up from this nightmare and have things the way I want it. I mean, Ive been living without the people in Mass for a while now, and Ive been kind of ok. Ive broken down a couple times, but Ive gotten better. And the people up here, I dont see myself getting over. Idk maybe Im just being some stupid teenager.

Please dont tell me my hormones are raging out of control, and I just have to suck it up. Or anything related to that, Im really not in the mood.

[dancerrox]

hey,

i moved here 6 years ago from Belgium and i know how you feel with how friends at a certain place are better than the place you originally had friends from. a lot of people ask me if i want to move back to Belgium and i mean i would love to the only thing is is that my friends there aren't nearly as supportive as the ones i have here. but if you want to talk about moving and such things, feel free to!

[e_sort]

I'm from MA, and if there's one thing I'm sure about, it's that you're not crazy for not wanting to go back. i sure as hell wouldn't want to.

what i want or sometimes think i want is to never have left. i had a lot of friends when i left, and it's gradually dwindled to none here.

anyway. if you have the option, i would stay where your friends are, because it's hard to make friends. but that's just me.

[DOWNINNATICK]

Moving is a biatch, you get settled in a place make friend and then all of a sudden you have to move again. You are by no way crazy and hormones have nothing to do with the loss you are feeling it is only normal to feel that way.
If you come back to Mass, you may find more friends and remember you can alway call or email your friend where you are now, so they will never be out of your life, someday you may be able to go back and be with them all again.

Think positive, this move is for the good and things will be ok.

Hugs
Cindy

[stephiifaye92]

Thank you all for replying. It means a lot even though youre just strangers over the internet haha.
But in an addition to my original post:

I told my best friend everything about my situation, and she told me she was happy I was getting evicted because she wants to see me more. It angered me because its difficult, getting evicted. Winters right around the corner and its hard to find a place. The funny thing is, when Ive been visiting her in MA, she either cancels the plans, or hangs out with someone else while im there, so its like whats the point. This is what I meant before, I only have about three friends in MA still that I actually make time for seeing, and who try to see me. Everyone up here tries to make plans with me, but Ive always denied, idk why either... I wish I could go back, [as in back in time, but staying where I am now] because I feel like Ive screwed so much up.