[Lauren2009]

... hoping that using a pretty color will make me feel happier, perkier. some days are weird... like i will be extremely happy and giddy and in the best mood, but within moments, little things or nothing at all will make me want to cry, or be upset. I dont understand why! I have never deeb to a doctor to diagnose me with any kind of depression... but what does this seem like? Im actually curios, because i am tired of feeling this way... feeling like i am stuck in a hole and no matter how much i climb jump dig and pull, i cant get out. any info is appreciated.

[turquoisesea]

It's impossible to diagnose not being a doctor and not really knowing you, but it sounds like some kind of depression - if you're on these boards that alone tells me something.
Have you looked up bipolar disorder? I don't know, but bipolar has to do with being really high up one moment and being really down at other moments.

It can't hurt that much to go to a doctor. At the very least it gets you a better idea of whats going on. do you have access to a doctor? if so I'd suggest at least trying it.
The sooner you get in the better, because it's very easy for depression of any kind to keep getting worse if you don't do something, and if you start out at a deeper down part it's ever harder to get out of the hole.

loads of hugs, I know this is difficult.

Keep posting - if we can help with any info or just to talk about things that's what we're here for.

also, feel free to pm me anytime *hugs*

Originally Posted by Lauren2009

... hoping that using a pretty color will make me feel happier, perkier. some days are weird... like i will be extremely happy and giddy and in the best mood, but within moments, little things or nothing at all will make me want to cry, or be upset. I dont understand why! I have never deeb to a doctor to diagnose me with any kind of depression... but what does this seem like? Im actually curios, because i am tired of feeling this way... feeling like i am stuck in a hole and no matter how much i climb jump dig and pull, i cant get out. any info is appreciated.

[gimmeice]

((((((((((( Lauren )))))))))))))))
I agree that you should consider seeing a doctor, it really sounds like depression but I am not a doctor of any sorts. Treatment for depression can be very helpful.

[nightbird]

Dear Lauren,

You sound sad and a little hopeless.

Am I close?

Well, the good news is that you can begin feeling better, no matter the cause, by building yourself up - which many of us do here - and also by talking to a professional, which, to me, is a wonderful tool, or joining in a real live support group, which are powerful to help us out of 'holes'.

Did you know we have some support chats here?

Look at the calendar and pick one to start, and visit it a few times, If you like, add others. I have tried many different types, and I don't have the same issues, but it's okay, they don't mind you being there.
It's good learning, and somewhere, you may hear the right words to help you that day.

Otherwise, I use alot of self-help books and a real live support group, a dance group, and cd's on relaxation, guided imagery and affirmations.

You... you can try lots of things to get out of being in 'stuck' and move forward.

Please keep posting also... that helps tremendously!

You will see.

I wish you every happiness you deserve, Dear Lauren.

[DOWNINNATICK]

Like Turqouisesea said, it's hard to diagnosis if you have depression, but it would be help to see a therapist, they could tell you if you have depression and as another post states, the longer you wait the worse it will get and harder to heal. I'm going through the samethings you have stated, waited too long and now I'm suffering from major depression. Join some of the chat rooms, read up on it and try to find support groups in your area with people who are going through what your feeling and that will help as well.

Hugs