just down today

not over any one thing just down, cant seem to snap out of it. i have had absolutely no anxiety today,wich is weird but good. i just dont feel. like im numb. i think i may have pushed my mental limits and just burnt out. feels strange

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It can get like that sometimes... sometimes I feel like it's a welcome break... at least you're not in absolute torment right? But, other times, it can be just as bad... because everything's just a blur and not real.
Hope you're feeling better soon
Molly

my feelings are back, but not good. ive been texting with my x for the last 3 hours. but she didnt want talk on the phone, she act so weird lately. why text constantly for hours rather than just have a conversation. im feeling allot right now. ill be posting more shortly probably under panic cuz thats how i now feel. just took a xanax 1st o of the day woo hoo almost made it a day

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I am sorry that you are feeling down, it doesn't make much sense why she would want to text and not just talk.

Keep reaching out to people.

I don't know why your ex would just want to text and not actually talk that is strange.

Keep on posting here and we will talk to you and listen.

Jbug

nothing makes sense with her lately. i dont know why i put myself through it. thats not true i do. she was a very loving person i just dont know where that person went. she has allot going in her life and one of the things she told me tonight is that she has to deal with her family problems right now. she needs to work on her, i need to work on me. makes sense but i just dont get why we cant help eachother out. i cant even mention missing her or how im having a hard time without her, she tells me i dont want to talk about us. change the subject. so why talk to me at all, i dont get it. im kinda shutting down now, im not goin through anymore panic/anxiety. ive had enough. im goin out for a lil bit i cant sit here and think. just not gonna do it. today was the second day i woke up without having an anxiety attack, keep trying to focus on that, but ive also felt kinda numb. if i can learn to control the attacks and not feel numb that would be great. i will get there, this will not consume me. i will not allow it. im putting dr jekyl away for a while and bringing out mr hyde, im gonna forget about this for a couple hours and try to have some fun.