[satansgetawaydriver]

Hi everyone - the purpose of this post is to see if anyone know's something i dont. From what I've read, it seems depression is just a state of sadness. (which is awful) well i wondered if anybody can tell me why when i was depressed i became psychotic? and my mind really messed up..i was lost in fantasy. i would think the weirdest things about anything and feel weird stuff...so is that depression??? i was prescribed depression meds. i just want to know whether they've tried to treat the right thing (depression) and not missed out on a disorder maybe? i've read about people that get psychotically depressed, and its just like mine. she went into hospital when she cracked, but i didnt. it says you should be treated with anti-psychotics and depression meds. well im just on depression meds, although im not as psychotic as i was. This one chick that was psychotically depressed thought the newsreaders were telling her her baby was going to be taken into care - whereas when i first cracked i thought my friends were telling me they were gay. "yea so you're gay?" "NO james you cant just say that..whats wrong with you?" obviously they meant you cant just say it outloud, so they must continue talking in code. by the morning i thought i'd been raped, i thought my mates were murderers seeking help in hiding the bodies, i was also thinking they had a massive gay porn ring in london. also over the next year or so, the TV was continually talking to me, along with computer games...anything was. while i listened to other people talk, I'd hear them speaking in code and making snide remarks. is that psychotic depression and if so do you think i should tell my therapist? i dont talk much in the sessions

[wisewoman]

hello, I really hope you do speak with your t about your questions. There is psychotic depression among other dx's. The T is the right person to speak with. Make sure you tell T if you feel you are having psychotic symptoms. Good luck, nice to meet you.

[satansgetawaydriver]

what does DX mean?

[soledad1]

DX is an abbreviation for diagnosis

I agree that you should discuss these symptoms with your therapist. It sounds like something he needs to know. I hope you are feeling better now.

[silver_queen]

diagnosis

[satansgetawaydriver]

I'm on 30 MG's zispin SolTab and well i woke up today and thought maybe im a little better. i sleep for all england now (15 hours a night) and my weird dreams have mostly stopped. but now im half in a day dream all day - ill be staring at something lost in day dream, and suddenly realise i've been seeing artillery bombing each other on whatever ive been looking at. i also see explosions on things - its dead weird. well i know why that is, its because of my game. but i just shouldnt se it on normal stuff like this. the psychiatrist said it might exacerbate my hearing and seeing stuff while i go sleep so im not worried. my next therapist appointment is on wednesday i think, so thats cool. ill tell him about it and also about other stuff while ill write down. i'm just scared im going to start hearing and seeing stuff all the time rather than just as i go sleep..."see, james knows how to have fun" the voice says as i fluff my pillow..then i see barbie growing a beard and getting old. its proper weird. well write back with DX means please, cheers.

[satansgetawaydriver]

wheres the DX in diagnosis? hahah kidding

[bptoo]

Hey satan,

Welcome to the forums, always cool to get new members! I was reading your posts and what came to mind (and please remember I'm not a doctor and don't have any background in medicine) was you might want to check the internet and do some reading on Dissociative Disorders and Psychosis. It's not as bad as it sounds. But some of the symptoms you describe do fall into these catagories. The internet is an excellent source of information for, well, everything. And then you can follow up with a doctor to see what he/she thinks.

Please keep us informed, and again, welcome to the forums!

Greg

[satansgetawaydriver]

Yea I've read about disassociative personality disorder before. I dont think its that that i've got - i think its just that my brains fried half the time from thinking too much. And im no even sure if im imagining this, but i think my mum is trying to play games. She's moved the mirror, from the kitchen - to the front room in a bid to get me to smell the weird stuff shes put down, so memories will come flooding back, and make me stay down there and watch TV. i dont even think im imagining that

[silver_queen]

Dissociative disorders work on a spectrum, from very mild to its most severe, which is DID or Dissociative Identity Disorder. Somebody else can explain it more fully, if they like. I cant think today.

wow, trippy! sounds exactly like what i experienced when i took GHB (a drug in case you havent heard of it).
the TV was talkin to me, and when people spoke to me, the words they said were in the background and their minds spoke aloud to me in a strange kind of code... theyre pupils seemed like holes i could decode their thoughts with....
but i was on a drug, you should probably talk to your doctor. if you think you got misdiagnosed, get some more doctor's opinions.

[satansgetawaydriver]

It's hella strange. no matter what I'm doing im hallucinating on whatever im looking at. electricity coils around all the writing and artillery is bombing. in the corner of my eyes i see mini tanks its weird. its getting worrying now - - - - i also feel like energetic things like this nsekhrfsedhfshdfhdkfskafsdkfsdfksdjfsuidhfiuewfagsgvuisdvhsdhvhrgerg

you should write stories... some really creative people think just like you do...
i dont know your whole situation so the thing about your mom and the mirror... i cant speculate on it.
but im just wondering if your thoughts have ever turned to real physical violence ...

[satansgetawaydriver]

im not nuts

i never said you were... just my warped way of showing concern for ya. ...

[satansgetawaydriver]

i feel rage at times. i feel like hitting people but dont. i do write stories sometimes, and poems. im also on a hall fame for my intelligence. want one of my stories??? they only take an hour

[satansgetawaydriver]

sorry i wrote im not nuts before iread what you typed. i was listening to eminem - who i think is a lyrical mastermind..a genius in his own right

[satansgetawaydriver]

Yes as time goes on, my delusions incorperate more intelligence and scheming than before. once i make a a revelation, that soon becomes apart of my delusion. and that thing i said about a hall of fame, it was an internet test so it doesnt mean crap

i like eminem too... and any kind of music that expresses my current state of mind, or even better is music that can completely alter my state of mind.

[satansgetawaydriver]

sometimes he makes me shivver. im not gay its just his lyrics. yea i find the same thing...i like music more when i can connect with it. what other music do you like? how old are you???check this link..look towards the bottom for James 19 UK..im pretty proud (says while laughing.) http://www.aceviper.net/IQ_TEST/hall_of_fame.php If you want to have a go at the test, go here; http://www.aceviper.net/IQ_TEST/iq_test_2005.php

[satansgetawaydriver]

Now i'm thinking psychcentral works in collaboration with medical health teams and only accepts members if they have a bought email address because then the persons home address is accessible - and you're an agent...hence you asking me if i feel like hitting people. well i dont

i am thinking the same thoughts about psychcentral's reasons for requiring a real email address. pretty lame of them. actually i am getting quite pissed just thinking about it! why cant i be anonymous and still post?!
%#@&#! psych central!

[silver_queen]

Actually, when I signed up I used my Hotmail address. I don't know why it has been changed to only allow email addresses from other providers. Probably to stop spammers or trolls coming on here too often. lol people here aren't involved in the mental health network except as the recipients most of the time. If I had wanted to sign now now though, I wouldn't have been able to, because I don't have any other email account than free ones such as those from Hotmail, Yahoo etc. I don't get any from my ISP.

[satansgetawaydriver]

never mind psych central, more like psycho central.

lol