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Old Dec 10, 2008, 10:22 AM
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i can't stop thinking that im a horrible person.
everything would be okay right now if i just wasnt so stupid.
i let things get to far
and now
im stuck where i did NOTTTT want to be
UGGGHGHHHHH

not fair

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Old Dec 10, 2008, 10:37 AM
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here's an exercise that was suggested for me to do about the same feelings that i had about myself. i was told to draw a line down the middle of a page. one side was to be titled "my assets", the other "my liabilities". fair warning it's not easy to see any good things about yourself when you feel down but i worked on this paper for days and was amazed at the result. like, are you a loyal friend to others? that's an asset and so on. do you expect too much of yourself, but don't expect others to be as "perfect"? that's a liability. i had to be brutally honest with myself to finally put down some assets. as the time went on, my assets outweighed my liabilities!
i hope this suggestion will help you, too. sometimes we are so in the pit of darkness that we cannot see the positive things about ourselves. it can cloud our perception of what is really the truth.
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Old Dec 10, 2008, 11:13 AM
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((((((((((((( lmg ))))))))))))))

You are not a horrible person, you are being really hard on yourself.
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Old Dec 10, 2008, 11:17 AM
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What a cool thing to do ((((((((( kebs )))))))))))! I like it

We always seem to be our own worst enemies at times. The negative seems to be much louder than the positive. But I can say, without a doubt, we can give a stronger and clearer voice to the positive and start to drown out the negative. It takes time and lots of hard work....but the reward is so worth the battle!

We are human....we make mistakes....the important thing is how we deal and what we learn and how we apply that new found knowledge that shows us what we're made of. I do hope you are feeling better soon (((( Img003 )))).


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Old Dec 10, 2008, 05:40 PM
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you didn't LET things go too far.
you tried to stop things, but everything was going too fast, too wild, and it was scary.
Ending up here wasn't all your fault. Looking back, it's easy to say "If had just done this, all this wouldn't have happened!!!!" But it's easy looking back... we have all the knowledge of what will happen IF you did that.

As you see on the boards, I too have trouble blaming myself for what's been going on. It takes effort to accept that what's been happening is not all my fault. And from what I hear it's not all your fault either.

Rather than looking back, try to look at the situation at hand. Realize that even though its hard and scary, you can reach out and try to get better. You DO have more tools now, even if some of those tools are unwanted (*cough cough parents cough cough anyone else who found out things you don't want them to know cough cough*)
Try to think of them as people who can help you, and try to find a way to get better.

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Old Dec 10, 2008, 06:12 PM
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it is my fault
everythign always is
im a mess
my parents say why didnt you get help when you know you needed it
and i dont even know how to respond
i should havegone
or else tihs wouldnt be happening
now i am failing school
have to go home
go away from all my friends
all of this wouldnt be happening if i wasnt so damn stupid.
i havent stopped crying all day
jgljgdflgk dghghoigjgdfl;gkdfl;gogodd;d

i could have gotten better a differet way
i didnt want it to happenthis way
i was scared this would happen
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Old Dec 10, 2008, 06:51 PM
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It's not all your fault. If you went back in time, yes you would have changed things.

But in the situation, you TRIED hard. Sometimes to do the best thing to help us is the hardest thing of all.

Don't blame yourself

work on getting better

what exactly have your parents been saying/doing?
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Old Dec 10, 2008, 07:36 PM
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i just hate them. they come up here and are just making my life more miserable
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Old Dec 10, 2008, 07:41 PM
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Quote:
Originally Posted by lmg103 View Post
i can't stop thinking that im a horrible person.
everything would be okay right now if i just wasnt so stupid.
i let things get to far
and now
im stuck where i did NOTTTT want to be
UGGGHGHHHHH

not fair
me too me too i'm going to be 50 soon in a few days and my whole life has sucked.don't beat yourself up like i do,man,ok???
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Old Dec 10, 2008, 10:01 PM
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it is my fault
everythign always is
im a mess
my parents say why didnt you get help when you know you needed it
and i dont even know how to respond
i should havegone
or else tihs wouldnt be happening
now i am failing school
have to go home
go away from all my friends
all of this wouldnt be happening if i wasnt so damn stupid.
i havent stopped crying all day
jgljgdflgk dghghoigjgdfl;gkdfl;gogodd;d

i could have gotten better a differet way
i didnt want it to happenthis way
i was scared this would happen
I can understand your frustration and perhaps you did what i used to do. i'd say, "i'll be better tomorrow. i won't feel as bad as i do today." well the next day came and i felt worse and so on...it took time but i learned that if i felt a shift in my mood or it went on for 2 days, i needed to call my pdoc cause i was headed for down under.
believe me, you are not stupid (as you call yourself). it's just getting to know when there's a "danger" warning sign ahead!i'm sorry that you will be leaving your friends. it's not your fault...just practice on "listening" to your mind and moods. hopefully you can return to school next term and you'll have gained some insight on how to avoid this happening to you again...we all have had similiar experiences or fall backs. please try to be good to yourself and try not to beat yourself up. we care about you.
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Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
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Old Dec 10, 2008, 10:11 PM
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((((((((((((( lmg )))))))))))))))
I still don't think that this is your fault, I went for a year where my symptoms were really bad and having a big impact on my daily life before I sought help and even then I was pretty much backed up in a corner is why I went for help.
Please try to be kind to yourself, I am sorry that your parents are being harsh towards you, here is some hugs just for you.
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