[ExiExi]

I know no1 really wants to read my rants, whining, confession.. whatever you name it... Just need to tell somebody though I don't even know why bother.. Don't tell me it's important - I know that already, I keep telling to myself how important I am every single day.. It just won't work.

Uhmm.. anyway. I'm typing which is weird because normally I can't even click "create new thread" thingy.. Oh.. here we go again.. grrrr

I had this dream last night.. I remember myself on a train with this sad girl sitting next to me - not sure whether we were close friends or not, but I felt kinda worried about her - like both of us really needed to reach the destination point. Like.. together. But she was angry (or worried?) with me somehow.. didn't want to explain things and I just couldn't figure out the reason she was.. like that. Anyway, this train suddenly stops in the middle of nowhere -fields fields fields everywhere - no roads, no shacks, no nothing. The girl immediately rushes towards the door, jumps off to the ground and runs away. I just can't let this happen, I follow her.
Next thing I know - I'm standing near the railroad track. The train was there a moment ago but now it's gone... theres no sign of that girl. But i feel her presence.. like she is everywhere in the world (yes, I know.. nonsense.. right).
Looking around.. Just an endless green field with some trees and funny little hedge along the track.. and the brisk wind..
It feels great. I'm in a lonely place but it's.. I can't put this in words. It's like absolute tranquillity, the ultimate peace of mind. I've never felt this way before, at least in my real life.

It was just for a second - my stupid alarm clock woke me up, but.. if there is a chance to feel like this constantly... if this is the how "normal" people live their lives. Jeez.

Normally, I dream of violent and scary stuff like plane crashes, car wrecks, shooting, nuclear war aftermath, some scary ancient 9 feet tall undead dudes with knives trying to stab me, necromancers, witches in disguise, dead people walking. The rest is horrible and makes me sick. I even saw myself dead after suicide the other day.. in a dream of course.. sigh.

This last one was so unusual. I wonder what it means.. who was the girl.. what was the place.. where did train go. A lot of questions without answers - good.

Don't ask me why I wrote this crap. Just my thoughts for tonight (3 am here). What was the phrase? "one day at a time".. yeah. like that.. I did it once more. thanks for reading. it means a lot to me. (tho me knows it's boring hehehe ;D)..

everyone
whatever it takes - feel good!

[Tumnus]

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Don't ask me why I wrote this crap. Just my thoughts for tonight (3 am here). What was the phrase? "one day at a time".. yeah. like that.. I did it once more. thanks for reading. it means a lot to me. (tho me knows it's boring hehehe ;D)..
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Not boring--very interesting. I'm no help with the meaning of the dream but I was caught up in your telling of it. Thanks for sharing it with us. I'm glad you got even a moment of peace.

[IsLifeWorthLiving?]

First of all, not boring.

YOu have been depressed for a while, is there something, a certain event in your head, that may have started it?

To me the girl seem to be someone you love. but that person left you. you chased after that person, but lost your grasp on yourself while doing so. no you are trapped not knowing where to go. And then you came at peace with yourself.

so in the dream, the train was you. the girl was a part of your heart. you chased after her when she left, loosing yourself in the process.

but in the end it made you happy?

maybe your dream is trying to show you a light at the end of the tunnel. your subconscious is telling you that things are not nearly as bad as they seem. when life gives you lemons...

taking a Freudian approach, this dream is simply expressing your wish for something good to come out of all of your hardships.

Hope that helped and didnt just sound like rambling nonsense!

HUGS!!!

ps- YOU ARE IMPORTANT!!!!!!!