God should not trust me this much...

i thought i will never cry again but i was wrong tonight iam cry again i just feel so sad i dont know why maybe after write everything about my childhood on a paper and read again ..its just so emotional...knowing that iam always alone and no one there to defend on me...and knowing i just become a burden to anyone....i try to forget about everything but i cant....besides my headache seems not gonna go away all my body in pain now ..since yesterday maybe i take more than 10 aspirins but my head still heavy...
when i get better?is there any possibility thats someday i will feel fine?
why God trust me this much ??? God should not trust me this much....
i want to disapear .....

((((((((((((( puffyprue ))))))))))))))) Be careful with the aspirin, only take as directed on the bottle. If you are in a lot of pain maybe you should call your doctor.

((puffyprue))
It's hard when we start walking through these feelings...
You mentioned writing about your childhood, puffyprue. It's a pretty safe bet that this is a great help, but it doesn't feel good at first. It's something we all go through when we start on our journey of healing...
It will get better one baby step at a time.

Please be careful about the aspirin, puffyprue.
Do you have a physician that can prescribe something for you?
Although aspirin is sold over the counter, it is still something you need to be careful of using...or over using it.

Don't disappear--please keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
Cap

hi puffy...

God's funny like that sometimes...never know why Him does the things Him does...

i'm sorry you are having such a tough time today...

like the others have said too...pls be careful with the aspirin. lots of aspirin can cause tummy aches! too much aspirin can cause bleeding issues! an if you end up taking too much you have to get your tummy pumped out at the hospital and then you gotta stay in the hospital...and that's never fun!

when i gets a really bad headache that won't go away with medicine i put a ice cold compress on my head! pls try that. like one of those soft icey things that you put in your lunch box to keep things cold...or just put ice in a baggie with some paper towels to soften things up a bit...or just use that bag of frozen peas in the back of the freezer noone is ever gonna eat!

hope'n later is better than now!

yes prue, i do believe one day you will feel fine. you are taking steps towards being healthy by talking about it to us, writing about your life, and being such a good friend to others and those of us at pc. all those things create positive energy in your soul. keep at it. i know you are weary of feeling the way you do but i would not tell you that things will improve if i didn't believe it myself. keep asking god to help you. we've chatted about this...he will answer your prayers. i know because he did it for me too.
even tho your head hurts badly i too think you should go easy on those aspirin. there's a reverse affect that can happen that causes too many aspirins to actually increase the headache. follow the prescribed doseage and/or take tylenol instead to see if it helps.
know that we care about you, prue. in time you will see that you are not alone in the world. the depression clouds your persception and makes things appear darker than perhaps it really is. take care. always your friend-j