Comming to America

So the big day is here 20th Jan and Alice is off to the states again . I just wonder where the money tree is . Maybe its just me not living up to were everyones standards are - where mine were a long long time ago. So in trying to give the kids what I thought was the best was I bringing my base down rather then settle on middle way. Now they just jet across the world and as far as I can see come back with nothing to show.I get excited just going going to town shopping.
The funny thing is that when I say "lets sell up and see if we can get somewhere that we can be a bit more financially comfortable" everyone says they cant move.
So here I sit in limbo taking the slack up and going deeper and deeper into despair and depression,just watching the world go by

I don't go anywhere either daggy. I'm sorry you are feeling so alone. Stay on PC, we'll keep you company.

hey there, my aussie friend!! i'm sorry you are feeling lonely today. it's hard when our kids grow up and fly the coop,etc. guess one of the things you can look forward to is when they return. i had a rough time when my son went into the military some moons ago. i realized after having a rather stern talk with myself cause i had "empty nest syndrone" that it wasn't like he wasn't ever coming home again, he was just getting on with his own life. then i reflect back when my mom was a young widow and got to see each of children grow up and move on...i'm glad that i was attentive to her when time would allow. don't know if it mattered that much to her, probably did, but it made me feel good to try to perk her up a bit. sooo.. please try not to be sad...they're just getting on with it, just like we did.
are you able to get about, daggy? it helps me to fill my world up with friends. sometimes i just take a walk in the neighborhood and say hello to people i see. another thing that really helps me when i'm down, is to help someone else. it may not be much, a phone call to say how are they doin'? or help a friend by babysitting so she can go shopping. i don't know your situation but i hope these ideas may spark something in your mind.
meanwhile we may not be there in body, but our spirits are with you via internet.
when you get feeling down just post us. we're always here for you and care very much about how you're feeling. plus, you can always pm me anytime!!!

Thank you for the kind support .
Today of all days is not the best day to send my daughter to middle America so she can do whatever it is she is going to do . I dont think she realises the amount of security and paranoia there will be when she lands . that is if she gets past customs .
Not to mention my son moved out yesterday and magically came up with $5000 to spend on rent and bits and pieces after crying poor for months . And not to mention his baby sitting situation ( which isn't his ) if you know what I mean he is just a sucker for the hard done by girl story Then gets totally under the whipped by her Again .
Things just pile up
Things just need saying sometimes

I think I will go back to writing poetry
in my endless pursuit of something

there you go. that's a great idea! i can't write poetry and when reading it, unless it's simplistic, i get lost in the "translation".

LOL simple words can often give the deepest meaning when said right

eg I LOve you how simple can you get but how powerful the 3 little words

Alice is off to the States now nothing more to do ..,,. was a bit of an anticlimax day .......... so hot here ....

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