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I'm so triggered today.... everything.... thoughts just whizzing around, memories, images... head won't stop... tears won't stop
I can't cope with this
wish there was someone I could just sit with, who I could be with and just know that they cared
I don't know how to cope with triggers and today is bad!
T in a couple of hours (only an assessment session so basically it's ALL my problems and past in one go)
too much pain
I hate being alone

(((((((((molly))))))))you are not alone u have me

hope i could be there

(((((silver_moon))))) lots and lots of hugs! I kno we dnt kno each other well but i hope some love and hugs cheer u up a little =) xxxx

You have me too Silver!!!

How did your T session go?

You don't have to spend the assessment meeting assessing if you aren't in a good enough shape to do that.

Talk about what ever you feel up to. You can always do the whole "past history" stuff on the second appointment.

If doing that is going to cause more harm than good, your new T will want that too.
Let us know how it goes.

(((((SM))))) so sorry it's not a good day for you. we all hate that feeling of being alone...thank you for feeling comfortable enough to share that with us. even tho we are not irl we are with you tho and we do care about you.
after your session i hope you will let us know how it went. it takes time to heal. be kind to yourself as you would a friend. you are worth it.

(((((((((( everyone )))))))))))

deep breath...
was so hard... I was a complete mess from start to finish, went through a full box of tissues and I didn't even talk that much. Again, it brought up something that I've never really thought about myself before, so it's hard coming to terms with the fact that I don't know why I'm feeling a certain way and this other person is helping me understand it. Of course, there are things that I know make me feel a certain way, but just these two sessions alone have uncovered a lot for me and they're only assessments.
I've been asked to go back for a third one (that's two weeks from today). I'm petrified of that one too. Meanwhile, she's given me some information to look at about different types of therapies.


I still feel so awful, VERY triggered... went and bought a massive bar of chocolate on the way home.
I would have liked to gone in to chat now I'm back too, just to take my mind off things, but it doesn't seem to be working. So I'm stuck with my thoughts.

Thanks for letting us know how it went.

Sorry you can't get into chat.

Can you IM?

Send me a visitor message and let me know. I'd love to chat too.

from us to you ((silver )) and a big one at that
j

Thanks guys
Really struggling again today... so triggered

(((((((((molly))))))))

Today has been BAD
I just went downstairs to just be around my family.. well... be aroun people is what i wanted... but I just got called names and yelled at... all I did was sit on the sofa did nothing to provoke this, nothing... I'm just so fed up... I've come back upstairs again to sit in my bedroom... or should I call it a cell, that's what it is

oh I can't cope with this, just gets worse and worse
thank you hunny ((( ((((((((((prue)))))))))))))))

Molly
If you just need an ear to vent your frustrations to . Its here .

Everyone feels that they are on the outer sometime in their life be it family or friends and the bigger the group of either the more on the outer we feel.
Your bedroom can be either your cell or your refuge where you can try and find at least a moment of peace.
When I get that highly strung I think I'm going to break I try and look inside myself and try and remember a time and place where I was at peace and just let that feeling seep out slowly.
I can tell you its hard at first but if you try and persist it gets easier and it means that you can handle more in your life without all the triggers setting you off . hope that helped
AS ALWAYS remember

((((daggy))))) thank you



I can't cope right now, "he's" just being awful and......
Just feel so ****




sorry for bothering you guys

hang in there molly

((((((((((Silver)))))))))))

I appreciate you're hugs ((((((((daggy)))))))))) (((((((((((((lbien)))))))))))
I'm about to snap

I can't stand him I can't stand life!

(((((((silver moon)))))))

(((SilverMoon)))

it will NOT always be like this. it will get better. i do remember things like what you mention and how unhappy things have gotten for you. sometimes life can feel just unbearable, BUT you will get through this time and things will be new and different. it's the waiting and working that gets hard.

you have some good friends on here and they will support you and listen and that is awesome. i'm betraying how old i am when i say that when i was still living with my impossible family we did not have personal computers and "going to a therapist" was not something very many people did - it was just beginning to catch on in the US back in the 70's. all of which is just to say that YOU DO HAVE HOPE AND HELP COMING.

i have been in situations and pain much like what you describe and it got better for me. i am trying to share some hope here. you do not know me, but i do care and hope that you find some relief and healing soon.

So sorry you are having such a rough time. Don't you just hate when the trip to the T does little to improve your outlook. Sometimes I'll leave my T and after a hour of "charting" get in my car a think "why bother". We talked, sometimes very intensely but I don't understand or at least my mind is going

I like you signature about the butterfly but I've never had one land on my shoulder. Guess that's why I spend so much time here.

Yeh, I'm glad I have the opportunity to get on PC, I get so ungrateful sometimes. I only wish I had a T when this all started, not years down the line when my whole life has been affected by it.
thank you

((((((((((((((( kebs )))))))))))))))))

Sorry I'm not so talkative, would like to reply properly, but I'm a bit of a mess and can't think.