what is happening to me, i need help fast!

My job is very stressful and i work at a bank. there are always managers threatening to to fire us if we do not produce numbers to meet our goal. I do not know how long i can hold on, i can not seem to remember everything, concentrate, or work fast enough. i broke down and cried after i lost a spreadsheet on thursday. i know i can do this job, but i feel like something is holding me back. i know it is my depression. I am to the point where it is hard to get up in the morning, or even clean my house or take showers. all i want to do is sleep. i was not always like this.i just made my first appointment to see a psychologist, and I've never been to one before. i feel good about taking the first step, but what about how i function at work. i can't go on like this. all the doctors i called seem to have early hours and i can not take off work so i hope this doctor will see me in the afternoon. I am really trying hard and even writing down everything at work so i won't forget things but i still seem to forget. i am so afraid of what will happen if i lose my job and health insurance. i just need a break, please help i am crying...

breathe.

As mentioned before breeathe!!!! Secondly take things one step at a time. Do not think of all your problems think of what you need to do first. IE get things ready for work tomorrow and then get enough sleep etc. We are behind you wishing you well and lots of

you are both right, i just need to breathe and focus on tomorrow thank you.

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I am sending you some hugs.
I agree with what has been said above, remember to breath and take one step at a time, it's easy to get overwhelmed which will only make things worse.