[teary_me]

Have you ever felt so alone and like no-one cares?
People say life is what you make it!
Jeez if i had my way i wouldn't want to make my life in this big black hole that i'm in.
I hate this hole, i hate everything about it, the thoughts, feelings, EVERYTHING!!!
It's almost as if days go bye i'm becoming more lonely than ever.
The thoughts crossing my mind well lets just say there not wise ones.
By this i mean i'm seriously thinking about staying in my room and hidinh away from the world, from what life is throwing at me.
As i sit here crying trying to write my thoughts and feelings out do you think i can? NO, its all just too mixed up.
Am i Artha or am i Martha?
People say only i will know but i don't know. I'm so confused i don't know what to think or feel anymore.
Life isn't ment to be easy they say bu jeez is it ment to be this hard???
Am i doing the right thing if i isolate mysel?? Will i cope?? I'm over so many questions, but no answers.
I can't isolate because i won't cope but jeez why can't i just talk about what is bothering me!! WHY??
How is it soooo hard to say how your feeling and what your thinking??
Me is because i don't know what i'm feeling or thinking so how can i say when i dont know myself.
What is happening to me??? I dont understand, i'm sick of being the lost little girl.

[justfloating]

(((((((((((((teary_me)))))))))))))))

It's true, life is what you make it -- unless you're depressed, and the depression steals away your ability to make any sense of anything anymore. Don't blame yourself for being depressed, you didn't ask for this.

The whole "only you will know" thing is true to a point -- this is your life and your feelings and your depression, but at the same time, the depression has probably taken away a lot of your ability to distinguish a lot of things, like your sense of self-worth, your overall perspective on life, your ability to hope or care about the things you used to. Depression tells us so many lies that it makes it more difficult for us to swallow that "only you will know" mumbo-jumbo, so that means it's going to be harder for you to figure all these things out. Not impossible, mind you -- you can do this, don't give up!

Life is also not easy, that's true. I can't tell you how hard it is meant to be, but I am here and I care and I hope that by posting here you can ease some of that burden.

Finally, I understand not being able to put your thoughts or feelings into words, and the sensation of not really knowing what you're feeling. It's a very familiar state for me. All I can tell you is to keep trying to figure it out, you'll get there eventually.

[Puffyprue]

Originally Posted by teary_me

Have you ever felt so alone and like no-one cares?
People say life is what you make it!
Jeez if i had my way i wouldn't want to make my life in this big black hole that i'm in.
I hate this hole, i hate everything about it, the thoughts, feelings, EVERYTHING!!!
It's almost as if days go bye i'm becoming more lonely than ever.
The thoughts crossing my mind well lets just say there not wise ones.
By this i mean i'm seriously thinking about staying in my room and hidinh away from the world, from what life is throwing at me.
As i sit here crying trying to write my thoughts and feelings out do you think i can? NO, its all just too mixed up.
Am i Artha or am i Martha?
People say only i will know but i don't know. I'm so confused i don't know what to think or feel anymore.
Life isn't ment to be easy they say bu jeez is it ment to be this hard???
Am i doing the right thing if i isolate mysel?? Will i cope?? I'm over so many questions, but no answers.
I can't isolate because i won't cope but jeez why can't i just talk about what is bothering me!! WHY??
How is it soooo hard to say how your feeling and what your thinking??
Me is because i don't know what i'm feeling or thinking so how can i say when i dont know myself.
What is happening to me??? I dont understand, i'm sick of being the lost little girl.

(((((((((((((((((99teary)))))))))))))))))))
life its hard its so true but u dont have to isolated ur self it will make it harder....
talk to us its okay to rant and say whatever u want tio said we here and we listen to you...i understand how it feels coz depression comes to me too....depression keep telling u lies and make u numb but in times we will get better
bunch of love
prue