[idontknow13]

I am back to saying I dont know whenever someone asks me how things are going or if asked my opinion about anything...last week was a bit better than the previous month, the anxiety level I felt has gone down, changing my meds I beleive had something to do with it although I feel some withdrawal symptoms but now I am back to feeling quite depressed, isolating myself, sleeping a lot, eating a lot, not doing anything....The only thing I do is go for walks which does help although I feel very dizzy and tired whenever I stop. So mixed up, so sad...I keep reading everything I can find to overcome depression and anxiety, it all makes sense but how do I bring myself to do those things when I have trouble getting out of bed????
I love this forum because it makes me feel I am not alone but often when I read the posts I can identify so much it hurts..I feel for all of you and I wish that we could all get up tomorrow and be happy and so-called normal but I have realized it does take time, just dont know if I have the patience and the courage it takes..
As usual, dont know if any of ths makes sense, all I know is I cannot function anymore...going to see my therapist tomorrow, I like her and feel a connection but I just dont know how much it can help.
One day at a time is way too long these days, one hour is all I can handle.
Enough ranting and raving from me

Originally Posted by idontknow13

I am back to saying I dont know whenever someone asks me how things are going or if asked my opinion about anything...last week was a bit better than the previous month, the anxiety level I felt has gone down, changing my meds I beleive had something to do with it although I feel some withdrawal symptoms but now I am back to feeling quite depressed, isolating myself, sleeping a lot, eating a lot, not doing anything....The only thing I do is go for walks which does help although I feel very dizzy and tired whenever I stop. So mixed up, so sad...I keep reading everything I can find to overcome depression and anxiety, it all makes sense but how do I bring myself to do those things when I have trouble getting out of bed????
I love this forum because it makes me feel I am not alone but often when I read the posts I can identify so much it hurts..I feel for all of you and I wish that we could all get up tomorrow and be happy and so-called normal but I have realized it does take time, just dont know if I have the patience and the courage it takes..
As usual, dont know if any of ths makes sense, all I know is I cannot function anymore...going to see my therapist tomorrow, I like her and feel a connection but I just dont know how much it can help.
One day at a time is way too long these days, one hour is all I can handle.
Enough ranting and raving from me

You aren't ranting....You're feeling...it's ok.
One day at a time and baby steps....Don't be so hard on yourself. Healing of any kind takes time. It's so darned exhausting, though.
Can you try a different med? I know it took a lot of trial and error to find something that remotely worked for me.
Patience is hard to do when you feel depressed, but courage....you have that. I believe we all do, otherwise we wouldn't be here. Take good care of yourself, please.

[Asylum Crew]

thinking of you
Ella

[justfloating]

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Rant away. It's good for you and this is a good place to do it. I want you to know that I know how you're feeling. Sometimes overcoming depression isn't so much about beating it as riding it out. You can do this, even if you have to take it one minute at a time. Take care of yourself, I care.

[darkpurplesecrets]

(((idontknow13))))

Right now you are right where you are suppose to be. You are breathing, maybe it is only minute by minute but you are breathing. Maybe you need to slow down to second by second by second for yourself. You are the important one here. Isolating one's self is a simptom that even I still get, we all have to fight those things you are not alone. Getting out of bed is hard but you are doing it and you should be proud of yourself for that. Every little thing you do for youself is a step depression doesn't win.

This forum is a great forum so we can know we are not alone yet we can walk with one another. Knowing it is safe here and others listen and will not judge but will validate feelings and that we can do that same for others makes me feel better. Yes it does take time and courage to get through this, and I believe you have that courage---you came here and you reached out and that my friend takes courage. You told us how you were feeling and that takes courage---good job.

I know it seems all so much but keep reaching, keep posting, keep the lines of communication opon with your t. You are functioning and making sense. If one minute at a time these days is too much--go to one second at a time. And know we are always here if you need to talk or rant as you call it. And that is okay too.

dps

[trevorzero]

Answering with "I don't know" to most questions we are asked is not a bad way of handling things. When it comes to our own mental health, we really don't know too much - we are stuck in darkness - and so that's how it is.