[geauxLSU]

yes I know I'm depressed I have been for a couple weeks mayb a month if you are lucky... yeah only I me and myself know I'm depressed....parents don't know and they probably don't care and will ever know. why you might ask...... well I had my best friend had alot of fun together yepp the good days.. know well she acts like my friend at school yeah well outside of school I have no friends. I always get left out.. always have. I think when I was born my parents said oops. yeah that is how I feel nothing can go good for me anymore. cry myslf to sleep 5 out of 7 days of the week. yeah I know I need help but will I get it no psychs are for crazy people right??? I have nobody to tlk to nobody the tell secrets to nobody to depend on yeh in the last year my life has been crumbling right before my eyes....... isn't high school the best yrs of your life well right now as a freshman it isn't going very well. the teasing and taunting well it would be nice if that could stop and if u had somebody to talk to I don't trust anyone nobody seems to care about me anymore yea nobody knows except the people who are reading this yeah it is 11:35 can't sleep have to get up at 5:45 probably won't go to sleep until o if I'm lucky 2am yeah any suggestions anyone I can't take this anymore x( nobody cares

[leacon]

Interesting name you gave yourself. I have a friend who is a BIG LSU fan. More to the point now. Welcome to the forum. You will find friends here who will support you. You relate a problem, which is very common to most depressed people- isolation, loneliness etc. Just a note to be patient here Posts are not immediately shown until you have 5 posts. Again Welcome

[justfloating]

hi! Welcome to PC!

It sounds like things are pretty rough for you right now... I'm not sure whose idea it was to tell people highschool would be the best years of their lives, because there are PLENTY of people out there who would qualify highschool as the WORST years of their lives. But a lot of those people are also now highly successful, happy and fulfilled, so just because things aren't good now, try to remind yourself that it won't last forever, and your problems don't spell out the end of the world.

It's just a suggestion, but maybe you should consider talking to someone about how you're feeling? Getting it out on this board is a good first step. But what about someone beyond this site? If you can't talk to your family, have you considered a counsellor at school? Everything you say to them is confidential, and it's their job to listen so you don't have to be afraid of being judged or turned away. There seems to be some kind of stigma attached to going for therapy, but it's nothing to be ashamed of at all. I know I was terrified of what people would think if I told them I was getting counselling -- I thought that therapy was just for "crazy" people, and they'd either think I was also crazy, or think I was being melodramatic for wanting therapy in the first place -- but for the most part, people are actually vey understanding, and seeing a counsellor was the best thing I've ever done for myself. Plus, if you're worried about what others will think about you going into therapy, remember that you don't have to tell anyone about it that you don't want to, because it's really no one's business but your own. Only a few of my closest friends know I'm depressed and in therapy -- I'd been seeing my counsellor for three months before I even told my parents I was talking to her. If you're still really uncomfortable talking to someone face-to-face, you might also consider your local crisis hotline -- there are trained professionals on the other end ready and willing to listen, and it's completely anonymous and confidential. You never know, you might feel better just venting some of your frustrations out loud.

Again, welcome to PC. Keep posting and know I care.

[Asylum Crew]

thinking of you
Ella

[geauxLSU]

thanks to all for you kind words and thoughts..... yes LSU is the big thing especially football where I live....... but even though I would like to talk to somebody, the counsellor thing would be nice, but it ain't (and yes ain't is a word) gonna fly cuz the school counsellor is my friends MOM. yeah but thanks for you thoughts though. hope it won't be like this for long

[geauxLSU]

dude....... my mom like really makes me mad. I do the smallest things and she starts yelling at me. she is so mean to me it isn't funny. she only acts like this when My dad isn't around. she is already excited that I'll b moving out ......... I'm in frekin high school WTF I'm a frshman andbshe is already thinking about moving out???!!!! she just doesntbget me or where I am comiing from and she thinks she is rght and nomatter what anyone else says she is right it is aggrevating she will say the meanest things and it makes me cry WTF she is suppost to be the parents here!!!!!!!! I don't smoke drink or do anything bad I have a 4.0 and I didn't know what I did to make her so mad besides being born ge'ez WTF is up with that>>>>~~~~~<<<<< she is one if my main problems here!!!! ):