[Berries]

I am sitting in my bed. Trying to care about anything. Trying to remember what feeling good feels like. What energy feels like. I want stillness and peace and I can almost get it when I overdose/overmedicate on my anti-psychotic, but then I am left empty, flat and apathetic.
Part of me cares about the people her at PC. Cares a great deal about how they feel and how they are doing. And I care about my cats and my mom.
But other than that, I don’t care, especially about me. I try to care. I try to be interested in doing stuff. I do even do stuff sometimes, force myself. But I am empty still. I am still in bed, trying to give a ****.

[justfloating]

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Take care of yourself. I care and I don't want you to get hurt over-medicating. I've done it with sleeping pills -- anything to become unconscious, anything to not have to think or feel. I know how tempting it can be, but try not to do it. It's dangerous and could lead to problems like addiction. It's good you're forcing yourself to do things even if you don't want to. If you can't get rid of that empty feeling, try to distract yourself from it for a little while.

[skeeweeaka]

Originally Posted by Berries

I am sitting in my bed. Trying to care about anything. Trying to remember what feeling good feels like. What energy feels like. I want stillness and peace and I can almost get it when I overdose/overmedicate on my anti-psychotic, but then I am left empty, flat and apathetic.
Part of me cares about the people her at PC. Cares a great deal about how they feel and how they are doing. And I care about my cats and my mom.
But other than that, I don’t care, especially about me. I try to care. I try to be interested in doing stuff. I do even do stuff sometimes, force myself. But I am empty still. I am still in bed, trying to give a ****.

I understand, sometimes it is hard to care about anything or feel anything. Sometimes we have to push ourselves to do something, anything to get our minds off of our current state. I know how hard that can be, but please find something that takes your mind off of you...today I took a walk and that helped for a while. I got on the computer and did some things. Although I will admit that all of that was difficult, we have to find a way to push past the misery.

I hope you are feeling better soon!

TJ

[Miracle1986]

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