[Berries]

i have NO life. It makes me depressed that i have no life, no irl friends, no career, no romantic partner. But at the same time i don't want or care about any of those things.

All i want to do is sleep.

i feel like i should contribute to this world, but at the same time i have no desire to.

All i want to do is sleep.

So i take my pills, more than i should, and they make me sleep. Then i wake up depressed. And cannot wait until i can take more pills and go back to sleep.

i have no life…

[justfloating]

oh, Berries ... *lots and lots of hugs*

I know exactly how you feel. I've been (and to a certain extent, still am) where you are now. My depression's made it nearly impossible to make friends here at school -- even though I've been here two years, the most I have are good acquaintances, and absolutely no love life. The loneliness can be terrible, especially since no matter how lonely I get the depression makes it hard for me to want to do anything about it. I still have days where I'll over-medicate so I can just sleep, even though I know it's bad for me. But there is a bright point -- it doesn't last forever. No matter how many mornings you wake up looking forward to the night when you can go back to sleep, try not to look at this as a permanent state for yourself. I won't say it's easy, because I'm still struggling and barely poking my head back out into the world at this point, but it can happen and it will happen for you. Is there anything you can do to occupy the "in-between sleep" times? Do you have any hobbies, or would you like to take something up? Maybe something simple you can do from home, like some kind of crafts or photography, reading, music? I like to crochet when I'm not feeling well, because then I don't have to leave my bed but I can still see the product of my time and I don't feel as useless. If you can occupy even fifteen minutes of your day with something enjoyable or productive, it really does make a difference.

And you DO contribute -- here at PC, where I've found your care and support so helpful in my own dark times, and I know a lot of others can say the same. Take good care of yourself, you deserve it.

[Rohag]

Your feelings posted here give expression to what many others experience. You ARE contributing to this world, and I understand you may not be able now to grasp that in your heart.

May the day come when you can catch a glimmer of your immense value.

[trevorzero]

I wonder if any PC people whom you are already acquainted with might live somewhat near you. Then a PC friend could become a real world friend. You say that you don't really care about having a real world friend, but I know that you really do.

[KChrispcat]

Originally Posted by Berries

i have NO life. It makes me depressed that i have no life, no irl friends, no career, no romantic partner. But at the same time i don't want or care about any of those things.

All i want to do is sleep.

i feel like i should contribute to this world, but at the same time i have no desire to.

All i want to do is sleep.

So i take my pills, more than i should, and they make me sleep. Then i wake up depressed. And cannot wait until i can take more pills and go back to sleep.

i have no life…

I don't know what to say but I so relate. I want to sleep all the time too. If I had pills I'm sure I would take them too. Depression sux!

Hang in there.

[yutzman]

I have NO life, no friends, no job, and no desire for any of it.........
I can't even SLEEP either, most of the time...........
I keep going on, though, in hopes that some day that may change. I thank you all at PC for that

[u2nance]

I have to agree with Rohag. If you're part of this group, you are already giving and receiving! And, so many of us know what you're going thru. I still have days (weeks) where I feel like you do...no friends, no ambition, totally apathy, who cares?, doesn't matter...But, then it happens: I wake up in the morning and realize it's good to be alive. We are not our emotions. We are loved.