In pain

I am so tired of hurting all the time! Pain meds dont help steriods dont help.Im just so over being in constant pain and not being able to do things i need and want to do.Im starting to wonder whats life worth if it has no qaulity to it.If you own a tv and it dont work and you know you cant fix it,you throw it away! So what do you do when your broken and apparently cant be fixed?

I'm well broken and have been told there is no fixing me, yes i very nearly gave up completely, and still have odd days when i feel like that especially when i am stuck in bed unable to even sit myself up or stay sitting up.

but i realised that all i have gone through and done in my life has given me knowledge and experiences which could help others who are not so far down the line as myself. so now i am a volunteer peer advocate, helping others when i feel up to it, when i feel too unwell to get up i simply phone the office and either say not today or phone calls/emails only please and that is all i get to deal with. (i am actually a director of the charity i do advocate stuff for too, we help other disabled and elderly people shape their own life by giving advice and signposting them to other places that could help and aiding them find the right support for themselves.)

I also have started making cards and necklaces for charity, again at home, again only when i feel up to it, but it gives a sense of achievement and value to me as i know the charity values all the work i put in and the money it raises.

yes life is hard, extremely hard, but i take every day as it comes, happy just to be alive, thankful for the little things because too many good people are not alive today to experience them.

It's very discouraging. I keep trying to find something that might help. Yay, google. But some things may not be fixable, as we well know. It's hard to accept. We have to try and squeeze quality from whatever small blessings we can come up with. Chronic pain makes things hard to enjoy, because the pain overwhelms. I'm sorry my post is useless.

leejoseph, yellowted, and h3rmit,
Boy do I understand your pain. Last year i decided to stop my benzos and pain meds on my own and now no one will give me any when i need them. So now I am stuck with my heating pad and advil. If i had known it was going to get this bad I would have never gone off them completely and had them for a back up. I stopped xanax, vicoden, oxycontin and fentanyl all in the same 2 weeks without rehab. I was admited to rehab the week later for a readdiction by taking a couple of what i had left but I left I could not stand it.

Sounds like you went through hell and back! So Sorry !