Spinal Nightmare

My third surgery is coming up, and I'm trying to stay positive about life and the moment. Although, I am usually in pain and not able to move very much. Throw in the mental issues, and it can really be a drag. I feel useless, and I mourn the energetic and able bodied person I used to be. Oh well, I think at times I expect way too much from life. lol.

Aw man, that sounds really awful! It is hard enough to have mental stuff going on, and then add physical difficulties on top of that. I hope your surgery goes well and that it improves life for you. That is a lot to deal with.

Marilyn (((hugs))). I never had spinal surgery even though i injured my spine. I feel for you and will send healing thoughts your way tc

Ive broke my lower back. Have degenerate bone disease and arthritis in my back.Stenosis in my neck, 2 surgeries for that, 2 carbon fiber cages. And the depression etc that came along with it.I can relate

Sorry, I feel you my backs really bad and im limited to what i can do. And when i do do anything it takes more energy from the pain and absolutly drains me. I havent had surgery yet. Last dr i seen said thats my only option now and im just not ready for it.Hope your surgery goes well and eases your pain.Pain and to much limitation is just unbearable sometimes very depressing.Hope you wellness !

I definitely relate.

I hope this surgery works. Do you take pain meds?

I can ID with you a lot. I had a spinal fusion about 16 years ago. It did help but my quality of life went to crap. Couldn't do anything because it didn't cure me. I still have some pain. Probably something I just have to live with for the rest of my life. Always hoping it doesn't get worse.
Lost everything , job , self esteem , and my whole family abandoned me. No one understood what I was going through. And then the depression. Feeling worthless and useless.
And yes there's not a day that goes by where I miss the things that I used to do.

So the only possible way I can move forward is to realize that the life I have now is the life I now have. I battle to stay alive. I try just to be grateful for the days that I could do the things I can't do now. At least I did have some good times. But now I realize that life goes on. And who knows what tomorrow may bring. Acceptance is another thing. I have to accept the way I am now.

Believe me , I empathize with you. Try and do anything possible , no matter how small it may be , to try and break the vicious cycle your now in.

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Ran across this on Twitter.

Welcome to the club no one ever wanted membership in.
This is the first day of the rest of your life, learning and accepting your "new normal" holds the keys to your future .
Ability to be happy in any way.

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