[Monty_girl]

Just wondering at what point can your T force you to the hospital? Scared my T is going to do this to me. I DON'T want to go. I've had a very bad experience in a state hospital and I think going to a hospital is just going to inttensify everything going on inside. But I'm not sure T is going to put up with me much longer. I'm just really confused.

My understanding (though i suppose state to state could be different but i wouldn't expect so with regard to basic human rights), is that you have to present imminent danger to self or others. In other words, the note's written, the plan made, the method close at hand.

Can you look up involuntary commitment laws for Kentucky? This may help to empower you even though i know it can be emotionally overwhelming. Do what's best for you. i think people in authoritative positions can sometimes, under the guise of caring or the feeling that T knows best (or doctor or whomever), allow themselves to coerce their clients/patients into doing something they think is best. For example, one time i went to the hospital over medicated with minor si. The emergency room technician tried to hint that he could call for a commitment assessment if i didn't agree to be admitted inpatient. i was just coherent enough to tell him i came because i want to be admitted but good luck with the empty threat cuz he can't prove imminent harm. He admitted it and backed off.

At the same time, my mind goes to thoughts of possible threats and abuser manipulation. If i tell, i'll be sent to an asylum. And i think of self doubt...man, if they only knew they'd lock me up for sure.

Whatever seems to fit or if nothing fits, i hope you can find your peace and balance (as i'm searching for my own).

[Eriksplus]

you poor things!
NOTHING is worse than hospitalization. Trust us, we know.
our thoughts,
Erik

[DianasClan]

Originally Posted by MeSo

My understanding (though i suppose state to state could be different but i wouldn't expect so with regard to basic human rights), is that you have to present imminent danger to self or others. In other words, the note's written, the plan made, the method close at hand.

I agree with MeSo. I believe you have to be of danger to yourself or others. But again it could include other things in other states.

Just my thought.
Diana

[Monty_girl]

I'm just scared as h*** T is going to do this. T won't stop talking about it and now it's getting in my head that maybe he's right. But I can't afford to go. I don't have insurance and I sure as h*** don't have money to pay for it. Some of my alters are truely ganging up on me. They are wearing me down to the point I'm so tired and weak they'll be able to hurt the body and I won't be strong enough to stop them. T believes that they are angry and mad that we are doing a lot of healing and he thinks that maybe they fear that they might be forced to talk and let go of the pain. So their answer to the problem is to ban together to gain control and keep the secrets quiet at all cost. So me being totally honest here. I'm scared sh**less. I'm so extremely sad and lonely. Feel like I'm truely on the edge of a nervous breakdown. Just want to scream and cry for somebody to please help me. I hurt so bad. So I just cry one or two tears, cause I can't be weak. But this pain is just to much right now.

"T believes that they are angry and mad that we are doing a lot of healing and he thinks that maybe they fear that they might be forced to talk and let go of the pain. So their answer to the problem is to ban together to gain control and keep the secrets quiet at all cost."

Monty--have you talked to your insiders about this????
Have you let them know that they won't be forced to do anything they are not ready to do?
And talking is NOT letting go of the pain, their jobs or their identity.
Talking about the pain is giving them a voice that was never heard before.
Letting them be who they are.
I am sure you are feeling very very scared.
Reassuring them that they are safe now and YOU will do the protecting because you are stronger than before may help to calm them down.
These are just my thoughts.
Thinking of you as you struggle with this.

[multipixie9]

Monty Girl,

I agree with what White _Iris has said. Those insiders may have some strong fears that they will be "gotten rid of or killed off ". Many of my alts were afraid they would just "disappear".

When I began to talk to my others and assure them I would be good to them and not ignore them or "try to get rid of them" things got calmer inside and we were able to actually do the work of therapy and not be distracted so often by fear and anger and threats of self harm.

Once my inside family believed that I really was FOR them, not just for the host, we began to do and feel better inside.

Every alter does what they do because they believe what they do helps them survive and helps the body survive. I was startled to realise that parts who harmed or were programmed to self-destruction REALLY believed they were doing the right thing. When I stopped accusing them of being "against" me (the host) there was much less stress/strife and warfare inside of me.

I am sorry to hear that things are going so painful right now. Maybe things will settle down and get calmer soon. I do care.

Leslie and Pixies