[jeNeTeConnaisPas]

That these are extreme dissociative episodes, rather than delusions.

I've been having what I've always considered to be "Bizzare Delusions" eventhough, in the moments where I'm having them, I can still recognise to a degree that its not really happening.

I've recently had moments where I though all of my skin was really, irritated, so I needed to rub it. And then I started to think there was, in my exact words to someone, "Slug Goo all over my skin"

Now, i thought I had rubbed so hard that my skin was secreting this, goo. But I knew there couldnt possibly be something there.

While I have this "delusion" I'm very dissociated, I can barely see anything around me, and external stimuli isnt processed or aknowledged.

And I wonder if this expirience is just being interpreted by me as something strange happening to me, physically, but rather its depersonalization?

I know I get it sometimes, but never really been aware, or really thought about it before.

I heard that people sometimes feel like their body is dissolving, or their body isnt real.

I wonder if me feeling like my body is really uncomfortable to the point where I start to think "Hey maybe if i rub my skin alot it will feel differently"

I dunno if any of this is making sense....um. Anxiety, really uncontrollable anxiety causes these pseudo-hallucinations/delusions.

I do have real delusions, that arent related to dissociation, such as a "Big Brother" type eyeball that watches what I do, and interferes with me using communication equipment, ergo, telephone, computer, pager.

But this particular "My skins gone and replaced with slug goo" seems to be more physical sensations and disconnect from myself.

Anyway, what do you think? And does anyone else have depersonalization symptoms that they once belived to be tactile hallucinations or something of that nature?

Still trying to work out what are my "Psychotic" symptoms and which are dissociative. Or if they're all entertwined.

Going to therapy at 4 PM. Hopefully I can work on in there.

Done ranting- Edgar of TBC

[DLHsSystm]

Hi,

I read your post with interest. I have been diagnosed with DID for 15 years and in continuous treatment almost that whole time and although I feel like sometimes I am not a part of my surroundings, that I am looking through a sort of fog and the colors of things seem off, I have never experienced what you describe. Sounds uncomfortable.

I hope your T can help answer your questions.