[Poohbear13]

Today my therapist decided it was time to talk about my childhood. Very sneakedly he got me to talk about what life was like for me growing up when I was in the 2nd grade. Why the 2nd grade? because I had a part show up last night who was in the 2nd grade.

Well anyways...I started talking about it and then I had a flood of memories. I told my therapist about the flood of memories and he helped to calm me down. He told me if I starting having them again to write them down or wait until I see him again on tuesday. So I decided to write them down tonight but things have gotten more intense and my part feels even more lost.

I am trying to comfort her and myself but I just feel like I am not worth anything. I am trying not to relive the experiences but they seem to be overwhelming me. I need some reassurance that I wil get through this. I just need to talk, i think, that is why I am posting this. I just need to let my feelings be known.

Pooh

[Jewels]

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im so sorry that things r tough for u guys...i cant say that i understand about the 2nd grade thing, though we do have a 4th grader an she gives us fits with all the memories too...i wish i could have a magic wand at times to help with all the memories...one that can store up hundreds of memories and just let a little squeak out now and then rather than a bunch all at once...im thinking maybe we just need to sit together and be there for each other...not unheard of here especially--sometimes it helps to get my mind off my own problems and be able to sit with someone who is going through some really hard times too...makes my stuff seem more bearable at times...i hope you are doing a little better and i want to thank you for offering to sit with me...which i gladly accept!

yahna

i wish mine would tell me. As for this passing...it will. i know it's hard when memories come or when things feel intense but these times always do pass. For me, once they pass i forget all over again and doubt myself until the next wave. For you, i hope the intensity calms as quickly as you need it and that you can listen some while they tell. Write it down if you can, even if it's here and you print it for remembering. Tell your parts you're doing what you can to hear them while keeping yourself safe. Again, if you can. Even if you can't bear to listen sometimes, it's ok. You're doing what you can in the moment and that's all any of us can do.

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Flooding can feel disheartening sometimes. You will get over it. You have been in a similar place before and you have gotten thru. You will again.

The memories are powerful but we don't have to let them be over powering. They are painful but we don't have to be sucked down by the pain....
It starts to sound like a broken record when told "the memories are memories they can't hurt you; you survived the worst; etc etc....."
But all the statements are true. I always hated when T said them......

Use some distractions, do something for you, try something that soothes you and the 2nd grader. This is the time to take care of yous.

I'm siting with you while you work thu this.

[Poohbear13]

I am getting through the day okay. thank you for your encouragement.

WI~ I know I will get through it looking back at it but when it is happening it can be very overwhelming. But thanks for the encouragement and sayings.

thank you all for sitting with me while I work through this. I know some day I will get through all this eventually.

Pooh

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luv yuo pooh baer

[multipixie9]

dear pooh,

sorry about the floods of painful memory. it bites when it gets like this.

i do not have very many good memories and i have tons of bad memories, but 2 days ago i got some feelings inside of being little and loving how the air smelled and the colors looked. it's not even something i can explain well to myself, much less to you and folks here at pc.com. however, it tells me that eventually i will begin to get back the good that i lost with the bad i supressed.

i've had to wait a long time and i kinda think the good might have returned sooner if i had been able to let the bad come up and out and be helped. i fought so hard to not remember the bad that i lost all the good in there too. i did the best i could in dangerous, horrible times and now i am recovering the best i can in a lonely time and i will recover!!! so will you!!!

believing the best for you until you can believe it for yourself,

leslie and her pixies

[Jewels]

still sittin with u pooh...

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abbi