[Ztrauq]

so confusing! now i get it! now it makes sense but i'm scared... they dont talk to me .. i feel they hate me i'm scared i want them gone.. yet.. i'm scared when it is too quiet... what do i do now? they are scared of the t, no more t for us.. what do i do now? t said they are not real how can he say that?! i'm too confused and scared...

[Jewels]

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first off, welcome to pc! we hope that u will find good answers here for ur questions, an will b able ta learn and enjoy all the wonderful people here in this forum especially...as for ur questions...sit back, take a big breath, an let it out slowly...its k ta b scared...cuz what u r feelin is real, an just knowin that is in itself freein at some levels...i donno if u have told ur T what is goin on, but maybe its just ur T an u need ta find one that deals with DID...sounds like he dont an is tryin ta woo u away from that aspect or possibility...i dont like it when Ts tell u things like that when they dont know what is goin on in ur head...an cant tell when u switch...i would suggest that u begin writin in a journal, an leave it out for ur alters ta write, draw, color...anythin that will help u understand...we have color books, baby dolls, teddy bears an blankets ta help those inside who r young deal with their issues...lots of them have reason for fear an so know when ta b quiet an not say ne thing...i hope that u will keep postin here...an u can pm me ne time u need ta...we r usually always round here at all hours of the night...gentle hugs iffn u would like them...

abbi of jewels

[Elysium]

Hi Ztrauq...

Welcome to PC!!

Gosh....this sounds soooo difficult for you right now!! So have you actually been diagnosed with DID/DDNOS by your T at this point. Has he done a full eval with testing. There are tests that trained therapists can give you to help make an accurate diagnosis.

First.....your perceptions ARE absolutely REAL!! Don't let anyone tell you differently....not even T. It is not T's job to tell you how you feel or what you are experiencing. Remember...as separate as your parts feel, they are all parts of you...they are not different people. Yet with dissociative disorders the parts can split further apart and take on their own identities. They ARE real. I think some T's think that if they deny the perceptions then it will prevent the client from splitting further.

It is possible to have more fragmented identity states with other disorders as well. Disorders like borderline personality disorder, and PTSD.

Things will work out for you...just hang in there and remember to breath. You may need to speak with your T and get a referral to a T that specializes in dissociative disorders if he does not. This is what I would suggest. And don't take NO for an answer. Be assertive and advocate for yourself if this is what you feel you need.

We are here for you!! Keep posting and we will help you through!!

[Ztrauq]

thanks so much for your words. angry parts got me in trouble tonight. comunication isnt good yet.

Welcome! You will find caring support here.

i'm not comfortable with a T that says "they're not real" either...he or she may be the kindest person in the world but that statement is almost like a litmus test in that...well, i don't think an therapist experienced in the continuum of dissociative disorders would say that. At the same time, i don't know the entire context and nuances of the conversation. If you haven't been seeing this T for very long (don't have a lot of trust invested), it might be a good idea to seek out someone more experienced.

Not going to T at all is probably not a good choice right now.

i look forward to getting to know you. i've found a lot of support here.

Hi and welcome

I understand your fear and uncertainty. It's a hard thing to wrap your head around. I still have periods where I disbelieve myself and my experiences. Trust yours! They are as real as you and I are.
For your t to say "they are not real".... Was that supposed to make you think everything was all better? Wow....It wasn't very supportive of him to say.
As far as talking with inside...wait and be still. When the time is right, you will know. Mine first came in dreams. It's very individual. I think you may need more support than your t is willing to give, though.
We are here for you. Please don't feel scared or alone.

[Ztrauq]

thank you all. Really.

I feel many of them are very angry at me. I feel there's a lot 'I' can't see. it's hard to explain.

[Miracle1986]

Originally Posted by Ztrauq

I feel there's a lot 'I' can't see. it's hard to explain.

I understand what you are trying to say.

[Monty_girl]

Welcome to PC this is a good group of people here. They are very supportive here.

Just remember they are all a part of you. The communication does it easier as time goes by. I understand when your first diagnosed it's just a shock to your system.

When I was first diagnosed I was just overwhelmed with everything.

We are all here to support each other. Know your not alone.

Originally Posted by Ztrauq

thank you all. Really.

I feel many of them are very angry at me. I feel there's a lot 'I' can't see. it's hard to explain.

I understand that also. It feels like many of the experiences of DID are hard to explain but it will become clearer to you and yours.

[Hunny]

Ztrauq,

Welcome. It is so good to have you here. The others are right. We are a very supportive group and you can get some question answered too. We hope you are able to calm yourself till you can hear, see, feel and then talk or write about what it is you all want to communicate. Don't worry about us. We'll just be waiting for you till you can.

Hunny
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