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multipixie9 · Jul 23, 2009, 06:24 PM

TRIGGR
we vere skard. feels lik werms crawlin in owr middl. want sckard to go way. is hard to tel u wat we reele wanna tels u. owr hed feels lik it gona esplod. bad hurt cos we is swichin a lot. we frade we gona tel sumfin we not spos to tel an sumfin reel bad happn us.

uncl ralf is ded. this is gud for us cos we nevr has to see him agin. he did evilbad stufs to us. if he ded an gon, wi is we stil afrad???

far as we kno th ay is all ded now. wish that made alla bad memrees go awa too.

we stupid, bad, evil, devilchild. we shud be ded too. we not ded an we not gona be ded soon. jus wish i cud feel lik a gud child. a nis lil girl, not monster girl.my hed hurts reel bad.

sorree i sed nuffin. i not ask u to rite me so we feel bettr. we not feel bettr eneway. u don gota rite us at all. i reele wish i cud erase dis but is not fair to the ones wat rote it. i so embarased by us. we so ugly insid.

not gona sine dis wif nam

multipixie9 · Jul 23, 2009, 06:31 PM

Umm, things are getting rocky inside of us and the littles are freaked out. We are feeling like we are coming apart and saying stuff we should keep to ourselves.

Some of us can't stand what they just did. They tell stuff and it just leaves us feeling totally stripped and it is not ok for us. No one here can fix this for us and we older ones would like to have some scrap of dignity left to us without them telling stuff and whining about how bad it is.

I'm not trying to rag on the little ones and be mean, it is just not ok that they wrote you guys here and we have to see stuff that makes us feel dorkier than anyone else in the whole world. omg, it is so humiliating. I wish I could move out of here. Yeah, sure like THAT is gonna happen.

We are NOT a FREAK SHOW.

Leah and tweens and teens

in here we got ones who want to s.i. and others who just wish to get numbed out of our minds. i just want to run away from here.

Crew · Jul 23, 2009, 06:53 PM

In spite of your inner turmoil of dealing with past issues is just to know that your okay and ppl inside are okay and you have tons and tons of support here.

Sorrow, heartache, and emotional pain which is Never Spoken is the heaviest load to bear...

Know my support is with you... Take Care

ThaCrew

Eriksplus · Jul 23, 2009, 07:19 PM

We all care about you here! You are NOT bad! You ARE GOOD! you're in our thoughts and prayers!
(Webber)Erik

Miracle1986 · Jul 23, 2009, 09:16 PM

all the pixies

turquoisesea · Jul 23, 2009, 10:19 PM

wanted to say... to the first post... not a devilchild, not by a longshot. You are good.

to the second... no you're not a freak show. You never will be. It's up to you - all of you - but maybe sharing some of these feelings in a "safe" place - somewhere people won't judge, somewhere you WON'T be that freakshow you're describing. That way the feelings have somewhere to go.

Just a though, it's totally up to you and I'm sorry if I came off wrong

sending hugs to all the pixies

multipixie9 · Jul 23, 2009, 11:58 PM

((((((THACREW))))))

we will accept your support on behalf of our little ones. they are asleep right now and it's the night owls only. thanks for your gentleness to them.

you rock!

Teens/Tweens

hehehe, i not aslep. nope. i sneekin arown lissnin to the nite. byby, sleep tite. don let nuffin bite. niteynite. kiki

multipixie9 · Jul 24, 2009, 12:01 AM

Thanks Eriksplus,

You are right, they are angel children not bad at all. They heard too many poisonous words, but in time they will believe the truth about themselves. The Good God makes no junk. The only trash are those who give themselves over to evil and hurt others with it.

We appreciate you!

teens/tweens

nitenite erikspeepls kiki

multipixie9 · Jul 24, 2009, 12:03 AM

(((((((((manda86)))))))))

pixies

manda86.

multipixie9 · Jul 24, 2009, 12:12 AM

((((((((turquoisesea)))))))))

some of them think they are doomed and that they are evil and unforgiveable. it seems surreal to me the host, that they could believe such hideous lies. but then some bit of memory will come and then I know why they believe that. they are children, imperfect, but loved children. as host i need to be making sure they hear more truth from me. good reminder, thanks!!!

where is a safe place to put all the freakish feelings and strange thoughts? we don't think we should say the angry bitter stuff here and maybe hurt someone frail. but we don't always like to journal cos its only us there and we are lonely in this place we all live.

do you see your inside family? leslies friend naomi can see her alts and the house they live in. it sounds so cool. we live in dark and see nothing and no one. we turned the lights out early to survive and stop the littles from talking and getting us killed. someday i think the lights may get turned on in here again, after we deal with the most horrid stuff. it may happen soon. that would be awesome. i admire hellen keller, i just don't like living like a blind person. it's a f***** drag.

Leah

silentandscared · Jul 24, 2009, 04:52 PM

(((((((((((((((((( scared pixies that dont sign no name))))))))))))))))))))

its not good to be scared and feel bad inside we know that and we wish we could take your fear and hurts away for you. You are not bad evil or develish and there is no way you should be not here too. know that although we cant make it better what we can do is be here for you to come and say all you want to say whenever you need to, cus we know that sometimes we just have to say it out to someone.
Know that we care and we will always listen
love the silentones xx

silentandscared · Jul 24, 2009, 05:00 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by multipixie9

Umm, things are getting rocky inside of us and the littles are freaked out. We are feeling like we are coming apart and saying stuff we should keep to ourselves.

Some of us can't stand what they just did. They tell stuff and it just leaves us feeling totally stripped and it is not ok for us. No one here can fix this for us and we older ones would like to have some scrap of dignity left to us without them telling stuff and whining about how bad it is.

I'm not trying to rag on the little ones and be mean, it is just not ok that they wrote you guys here and we have to see stuff that makes us feel dorkier than anyone else in the whole world. omg, it is so humiliating. I wish I could move out of here. Yeah, sure like THAT is gonna happen.

We are NOT a FREAK SHOW.

Leah and tweens and teens

in here we got ones who want to s.i. and others who just wish to get numbed out of our minds. i just want to run away from here.

((((((((((((((((((((( Leah, Tweens and Teens ))))))))))))))))))

First can l just say you are no freak show..........in here there are many many good and caring people who will support you all in any way that they can.

Mandyxx

HI PIXIES

YOU DONT ALL REALLY KNOW ME BUT L READ ALOT OUT HERE AND ONLY SOMETIMES DO I POST ANYTHING CUS LIKE YOU ALL SAY I DONT WANT WHOLE WORLD KNOWING OUR STUFF CUS ITS NOT LIKE THEY CAN MAKE IT GONE. JUST WANTED TO SAY HI AND TO SAY TO ANYONE WHO MIGHT WANT TO YOU CAN WRITE TO ME ANYTIME YOU LIKE IN PM . I AM ONE OF OUR PROTECTORS WHICH CAN BE A CRAPPY JOB AND I AM ALSO A TEEN SO IF YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING I AM HERE

HOPE IT ALL GETS BETTER FOR YOU ALL AND TRY NOT TO BE TOO HARD ON THE SCARED ONES THEY JUST DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO WITH IT ALL
IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS TOO
DONNA

multipixie9 · Jul 25, 2009, 06:35 PM

Thanks Donna,

We just don't like having all those little ones around. They bug the crap out of us and cry and do weird stuff and only want to eat crap that is no good for anyone. It's not their fault we guess, but sometimes I just wish we could be alone and not have all this stuff shoved in our heads.

Thanks for the support. We are just angry right now and tired of scared ones making life hell in here. Shoot never mind ok. bye

Leah

turquoisesea · Jul 25, 2009, 10:51 PM

*hugs all the pixies*

silentandscared · Jul 26, 2009, 04:44 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by multipixie9

Thanks Donna,

We just don't like having all those little ones around. They bug the crap out of us and cry and do weird stuff and only want to eat crap that is no good for anyone. It's not their fault we guess, but sometimes I just wish we could be alone and not have all this stuff shoved in our heads.

Thanks for the support. We are just angry right now and tired of scared ones making life hell in here. Shoot never mind ok. bye

Leah

HI LEAH

WE UNDERSTAND EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE SAYING AND WE ARE SORRY FOR ALL THAT ANGER YOU ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW. NO ITS NOT THEIR FAULT LIKE YOU SAY BUT WE SO KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT BEING ALONE. WE NOW ALL HAVE OUR OWN ROOMS/PLACES INBSIDE WHERE WE CAN GO FOR SOME PEACE ONCE IN A WHILE JUST TO BE ALONE. SOMETIMES IT CAN ALL BE TOO MUCH. WE UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE SAYING AND WE HEAR YOU LOUD AND CLEAR.

DONT BE TOO HARD ON YOURSELF........ITS OK TO WANT TO BE ALONE SOMETIMES
DONNA

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