[Eriksplus]

I seemed to have plunged my system and another close to us into dispair!
Now Host's Grandmother is going to sell the god damn house and send us to live with The Mother, who is even WORSE!
She also stated she is going to put a password on the computer!
For that reason I have not left the computer room since she uttered these words! I even slept (and not very well)in the room! I will NOT make my system suffer anymore by allowing it to happen!
WHY do I always make things worse for myself and everyone around me??
I am seriously considering packing my bags and leaving the system! I TRY to help! I DO! I just make everything WORSE!
I do NOT want pity--I want a way to make things ALRIGHT again!
HELP!
(Hill)Erik

[LivingMiracle]

If its okay to ask why are living with your grandmother instead of your mom. I'm just trying to get a gist of the situation.
Safe Hugs

[Miracle1986]

(((((Hill)))))
We still ya'll... nothing will ever change that!!!

Love,
Manda

[dreamland]

I so wish I had some answer for you. I wonder why you think you ruined everything? do your g'ma and the mother live near each other?
thinking of you. . .take care.
d-mama

[Eriksplus]

Originally Posted by LivingMiracle

If its okay to ask why are living with your grandmother instead of your mom. I'm just trying to get a gist of the situation.
Safe Hugs

Untill a few months ago, Host's Mother, Grandmother, The Host, and her Brother used to live in the same house, because brother is severly brain damaged. Mother moved out with Brother, And Host chose to stay with the Grandmother.
(Webber)Erik

[Eriksplus]

Originally Posted by dreamland

I so wish I had some answer for you. I wonder why you think you ruined everything? do your g'ma and the mother live near each other?
thinking of you. . .take care.
d-mama

It is hard to explain, but...I really do feel like I screw everything up.
(Hill)Erik

[dreamland]

Originally Posted by Eriksplus

It is hard to explain, but...I really do feel like I screw everything up.
(Hill)Erik

you don't have to explain anything, my friend. I hear your pain.

[Eriksplus]

The problem with the other system is patched up, but we still have the Grndmother to deal with...
(Webber)Erik

[dreamland]

Originally Posted by Eriksplus

The problem with the other system is patched up, but we still have the Grndmother to deal with...
(Webber)Erik

I'm sorry you still have to deal w/Gm and glad others are mending. . .
I want to tell you that I (we; and especially d! ) think that you all are brilliant!
and creative. . .please take it easy on yourself right now.
d-mama

(((Eriks)))
You don't ruin anything; you get things ruined for you. Please take good care of YOU.

[Luce]

Okay, I am going to disagree with the previous poster's statement,simply because I am a very strong believer in each and every one of us taking personal responsibility for our own selves and our own actions.

That being said however, while each and every one of us does make mistakes sometimes and our actions can inadvertently affect others in ways we may not have intended, I do believe there is little that is *ruined* and little that we cannot repair.

... and it seems in this situation you were able to do something towards repairing the damage that occured with the other system involved, so kudos to you. You did something that affected someone else, took responsibility for it, and helped to repair it.

I would say that, far from 'ruining' everything, you are a good person who operates with integrity and a sense of personal responsibility. That's the kind of friend that everyone needs.

As for 'darling grandmama'... it sounds like she insists on throwing obstacles in your way. Take heart in the fact that your adulthood is impending, and soon you will be able to be your own person, in charge of your own self. It probably is just a matter of waiting it out.

But , you know... everything is not ruined... just made a little trickier. Hang in there.

Luce
Everyone has the right to disagree.....We were only trying to help.
why dowe bother if every timewe attempt to support, someone is waiting in the wings to jump?
Eriks we're sorry

[Luce]

I am sorry, Calista, I meant you no harm or ill-will. Your support and opinion is fine as it stands, even if someone else does disagree with the underlying premise, and I know your support was appreciated by Eriks just as it was. My opinion is simply that - my opinion, and there is nothing to say that mine is right over yours.
I did not mean to 'jump' on you, but I can see now why it might seem that way to you. I realise now I should have written my opinion without stating that I disagreed with yours, and I am sorry I didn't see that sooner. I truly meant you no harm, and I am sorry you were offended.

(((Eriks))) I hope things are calmer for you.
(((Luce))) I am sorry....You did nothing wrong.

[Eriksplus]

Things are a bit better, thank you.
(Hill)Erik