[Jewels]

we r so antsy an anxious an out of sorts...it seems like there is no end ta the pain an thoughts bout ourselves that we donno which way ta go...seem like the only way we is happy is when we dont hafta listen ta the memories...we donno why at this point she is so resistant ta listenin 'cept we know that it is really painful for her...but then we dont get what we need if shes unwillin ta listen like we need her to...we have a T who is new an who I have emailed an asked her ta help but shes been outa town an we donno when she is gonna b back in again...she hasnt set out any new T time so we donno if we r actually gonna see her again...we r scared an upset an have upset tummy lots...we donno if we is ever gonna b ourselves again an work together...seems like we hit roadblocks time after time from her resistance ta the memories...i donno if we can take much more of her not listenin...we need ta voice it...an if we cant take it then we can voice it ta our T an she can decide when ta tell her since we cant seem ta break thru ta her sensibilities an cause her ta see our needs...please send prayers an good thoughts our way...

abbi

{{{ abbi }}}

Have you tried to write your story/memories down on paper?

That way when you are ready, you can let T or maybe even someone you trust here at PC, read them. Or, if that isn't something you are comfortable doing, you can write them down and then rip them up into tiny little pieces.

That way you are telling, and sometimes telling will help the memories not be "so loud" anymore.

(((abbi)))
that's a good idea to write it all down. Is there anybody for you while the T is away? We're here and will sit with you if you want.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((( abbi ))))))))))))))))

[Hunny]

Abbi

for a breakthrough
against roadblocks & resistance
for safety to voice it
for relief & calmness after
for peace



Hunny

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((abbi))))))))))))))))))))))) I think journaling is a great idea. Everyone can write if they wish and get to know each other. You don't have to keep it if you don't want to or if you are ready take it in to your t. It may be easier than trying to tell her out loud. Healing can take a while and each of you will go at the pace that is right for them. Soemtimes it is slower than others would like but it will come in times and try and be patient for them.

BB

[Miracle1986]

(((((abbi)))))

[Eriksplus]

Abbi,
We have felt the way you do many times before.
Belive me, we know from experience things WILL get better! Hang in there!
(Kay)Erik

[Jewels]

we do write in a journal but she very seldom picks it up to read it...an when she does she hurriedly puts it right back down again...im just not sure how much more we can do before the walls come caving in on us an then we wont have a voice ne more...

Can you get your very own journal? One that just belongs to you?

[Eriksplus]

That's a swell idea!
(Webber)Erik

http://forums.psychcentral.com/showt...84#post1103284

[Jewels]

they are simply beautiful ob...thanks SO much! I guess i have lots to learn about this place...i didn't even know there was a thread started for me anywhere...thank you for the redirect...

abbi

(((Jewels)))
are you feeling any better? We are sitting with you.