[Typo]

I am extremely frustrated right now with my dissociation and my alters.

I have gone a long time with the system in order adn being very quiet, not blanking out, or feeling surreal, or swapping out.

now something is lurking in my mnid about the abuse, and my system is swung into minor chaos, I'm swappign a lot, increasingly feeling float and disconnected from the world.

I don't know how to reinstate the calm and well working system I had going on, well not as much as it was a system as much as it was me in denial about alters and ingnoring their presence. I had rules in place, but the protecter alter keeps breakign them,

this is all so confusing, and upset for me, I don't know what to do, I have a hard time accepitng all of this, I fear people will laugh at me, or clal me a liar, or something...

I just don't know what to do anymore...

[Miracle1986]

(((Silversparrow)))

[Eriksplus]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((Sparrow))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
(Dance)Erik

[dreamland]

we understand

[Crew]

Sparrow...

were not sure about your system but when things go wacko in ours its always a sign that a good change is on it's way for us maybe that is what is happening to you guys. Just a thought...

Were not laughing at you and we absolutely don't think or would ever think you were a lair! Those are messages that needs to be thrown out with the Lard!

Know we care and are thinking about you... these feelings of being "out of control of system" We expierence is what we call Healing!
ThaCrew ((((((((safe gentle hugs for you all))))))

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((( Silversparrow )))))))))))))))))

[turquoisesea]

((((((((((((Silversparrow))))))))))))))))

I wish I had magic words that would make things right, like the perfect frosting to put on a cake or a cherry to put in a shirley temple. I don't. But I do know you're a great person, and I really care about you. Try your best to work things out, seems to me that it might take working with your parts, and being forced to accept their existence again *yikes, right* ... but regardless we're here for you as you try to figure things out. Safe hugs to you

sparrowtail
i have gone the route of setting "rules", guidelines and taking control and it ends up blowing up in my face. my T keeps reminding me that it is communication, compassion, cooperation, and teamwork that will keep the system running smoothly. when something "breaks thru" it is usually because something needs to be addressed, worked on, processed or another insider is needing to talk.

in the end, it all falls back into working again. as Crew said, it is part of healing. part of the process---it does have it's ebbs and flows and believe it or not, those without DID go thru some of this too!!!

Silversparrow
I don't know how your system works, but can you ask inside what's happening? I have a hard time getting a reply if I do that but maybe it will work for you. Maybe there is something important going on.
Please believe in yourself. Trust your gut. You are true.

[Typo]

(((((((((((((((Everyone))))))))))))))))

Thank you so much for your responses we are very grateful.

I am terrified to post here, something about my fear just will not let me, I"m absoultey terrified at being laughed at, or that people will doubt me, I kno this is a safe place for me and my alters, I guess maybe I went so long in deinal about this and my others that it is once again hard for me to speak about it all..

I just wanted to say thank you so much for the helpful advice and hugs,

Love and peace
Sparrow