[GLOOMCOOKIE7777]

OK...this happened a couple days ago, but it's really been bothering me.
Me and my bf were watching Sybil and it triggered some flashbacks of mine, so I started getting depressed.
My 6 year old alter, Angel came out and was dissociating and crying.
Well...apparently my bf was lecturing her or something trying to comfort her and...I don't remember what happened, but an old alter came out...he'd been dormant for 6 years!
I don't know what happened, but when I came to, my bf was scared...well more confused than scared, but still...
He said Angel came out briefly while I was crying in his lap.
He told me she said it was Alex...
I had an incident when I was 10 and was hospitalized for almost a year in the children's ward of my hospital, I was really out of it for that time and a long time after.
After what happened, Alex stopped coming out or speaking...I'm scared...
I have no idea why he'd come out now...
my bf said I didn't hurt him or break anything...but I had tried to run out the door and I had a look on my face that said I wanted to hurt him...I'd never hurt him...and I'm pretty sure none of the alters dislike him...but...this incident's got me terrified...
He said he's fine, but I don't know...

sorry for the rant, just needed somewhere to vent.
thanks for listening.

Sorry I'm not so great with words sometimes, but I'm listening

[GLOOMCOOKIE7777]

thank you

[multipixie9]

I can see why you were scared! Do you have a T who can help you work on this issue? If not you could try getting a notebook and writing to alex and asking questions and trying to set up communication. I don't really know what to say, but it sounds like Alex needs help too, just like the rest of you all.

[wanttoheal]

That sounds scary. I have never been able to watch any movies about that kind of stuff. I have to be so careful about what I put in my brain because I am just triggered too easily. Even some animated movies trigger me, especially some Disney ones.

It sounds like you were triggered as well. Do you have a therapist to talk to about this? Perhaps your bf can help you ground so you can get present again when this happens? Hope you feel better soon.

[GLOOMCOOKIE7777]

No, but I'm going back to therapy soon.
I had to stop going to my last T because of some drama that happened.

The notebook thing is a good idea, I'll try doing that.

I'm very easily triggered too

my bf has the same problem, so I'm sure he'd help me get grounded if I asked...I'm just very shy.

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((GLOOMCOOKIE7777))))

I am sorry you got so triggered and scared. I know how others coming forth with no warning or knowing of it is very alarming. I know what you feel like. I have had one come forth after many years of not coming. She is scard but has come back. Maybe he felt safe enough to come back. Sometimes, they come back for a reason.

Know that you are not alone. I know it is scary but for some reason he is back. You are being heard and you are not alone. We do care. I do hope you are doing better. I am glad to hear you ae going back to therapy soon. That will help.

Please take care of yourself. Know we are here for you and we are listening. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps

[DLHsSystm]

I don't have anything to add to the good posts above, I just want to say I know what that kind of fear feels like. I hope you and Alex can get some communication between yous.

[Eriksplus]

We're very sorry this is happening!
Praying for you all!
(Kay)Erik

We hear you and understand an alter like that. Tak care!