[AShadow721]

AHHHHH!!! I'm reading and rereading my posts in a voice my mother told me I used a lot as a child (but I didn't truly remember it until now). I can't stop it. This voice, it has an accent of the UK. Which country, I'm not sure. But when I just started READING over my last post, I read in this accent. When I was writing it was my normal voice, but reading, it's different. Has anyone ever had this experience? It's so odd. I do remember this voice, and I would say that it has a definite masculine feeling associated with it, like I would feel like I was a boy when I used this voice. It's quite odd and scary though. Well, I am not dxed with any dissociative disorders other than dissociative amnesia from my fourth grade year in elementary school and I do have PTSD and feel pretty dissociative nearly all the time.

when I read it's more like a better version of my voice in my head, sometimes it's the voices of other people I know, unless you are talking about reading outloud

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by AShadow721

AHHHHH!!! I'm reading and rereading my posts in a voice my mother told me I used a lot as a child (but I didn't truly remember it until now). I can't stop it. This voice, it has an accent of the UK. Which country, I'm not sure. But when I just started READING over my last post, I read in this accent. When I was writing it was my normal voice, but reading, it's different. Has anyone ever had this experience? It's so odd. I do remember this voice, and I would say that it has a definite masculine feeling associated with it, like I would feel like I was a boy when I used this voice. It's quite odd and scary though. Well, I am not dxed with any dissociative disorders other than dissociative amnesia from my fourth grade year in elementary school and I do have PTSD and feel pretty dissociative nearly all the time.

whoa, that must be so scary for you.

I didn't have much of what my therapist calls co - consciousness so I was never detecting differences in my voice vs my alternate personality voices. nor the thought pattern differences between my alters thoughts and mine. but from what I know and have read for my college classes and from the group therapy class that I just joined with my my therapist as teacher, I understand its normal for changes like this to happen and be noticeable with people who are DID. One time during group hen someone else was asking about this same thing I asked my therapist if she ever noticed whether I did this. She said all DID's go through switching personalities like this where there are subtle differences in how a person is in their conscious state and their altered state. she then did a kind of laugh and said that therapists pay attention to these subtle differences so they can detect when their clients have switched from their conscious state to their altered states and from altered states to other altered states. and she said its these subtle differences that allow psychiatrists to notice when someone has switched when undergoing diagnostic procedures.

Then she told me yes I did it too its not noticeable now that Im integrated because normal people also use those subtle changes in tone of voice to show their emotions. people normally talk different ways when they are stressed, angry sad, happy excited. So naturally when someone walls off their emotions into altered states those altered states carry the voices depicting the emotions that they carry with them. she gave us all a home work assignment. during this week we have to notice how we talk and write down in our journals our discoveries about ourself. whether or not we noticed these subtle differences, how recognizing emotions in our speech made us feel and write down what emotions we recognized and how we handled the situation.

did you call your therapist? what did they tell you about it? how do they want you to handle it?

[AtreyuFreak]

I actually have this happen quite often, where I'll be dissociated but not so much that I've switched into another alter, and I'll notice that I'm speaking in a voice that doesn't seem like my own. Sometimes it sounds different, like someone else's voice, and sometimes it just feels like someone else is talking, not me.

[krazy_phoenix]

One of us is simply known as 'Pommie', and talks in a cockney English accent (we're not from England). It is pointed out to me by whoever Pommie is talking to, someone making a comment about my speech which is so clearly different from nearly all the rest. Apparently there is also a Kiwi accent tho I don't know who this belongs to. Yeah, weird.

[Fox]

I do that too but never thought anything of it. I mostly used that voice when I was playing though. I never really made anything of it. That same voice came out once in a school play. I had only one line and every kid after that kept making me say it over and over again since they thought it was amazing that I could put on a Brittish accent. I think I was in 4th or 5th grade. When I played with my friends I had a Brittish accent too. But like I said I never really gave it much thought it was just one of many voices I used depending on the different roles I played. I had a deeeeeeep voice that scared my cousin when we were playing cops and robbers needless to say we didn't play that one too often xD

[AShadow721]

Hmmm. I most have fallen asleep when I was trying to respond on here before. I was reading in my head, not out-loud. I wouldn't say that a young UK boy is a better version of myself, since I am an American woman. I do know some Irish and English people that are family, although not very well and I don't believe I knew them at the age that I did speak like this. So if I got it from anywhere, I would say it would have been the TV.

Recently, I had an intense flashback and started to remember some more things about the abuse I endured as a child. And so I wonder if this was brought on by this. I wonder if I used this voice during the year or two that this one incident happened. And I wonder if it was around the year that I do not remember at all. This makes me wonder if it is either indeed an alter or if it is some kind of flashback. My mother reminded me of this voice about 6-7 months ago. I had no recollection before this.

Amanda, it was quite scary. Thank you for you insight. I wonder if it is co-consciousness. I do not currently have a therapist, although the therapist I did see for only 4 sessions during September 2009 told me that I could e-mail him anytime. Maybe I should e-mail him. I feels odd though. I never e-mailed a therapist before.

It is weird. I wonder if I ever do switch completely. It would be very weird for other people to hear me talking like that. Thanks for letting me know that I'm not the only one. And that I'm not the only one that uses a UK voice, although I am not from the UK.

Fox, I also believe that this may have been from my imagination. That maybe I was just paying around. But I've now come to wonder, with all my dissociating, if maybe it is an alter. I'm send my old T an e-mail right now. I will let you all know what he has to say about it when he writes me back.