[Hunny]

made my little parts be abused and feel betrayed and hurt and make decisions based on this programing, making me behave in a way that was and is not who I am.

Breaking off this filfth is one of the hardest things. My core, me, my innocence will NOT be given over. They can take those set-ups and programing and put them where the sun don't shine!

....a little deflated at the thought of the work set before me, I am waiting for the wind to return to my sails. I will be restored! They can't have my life!

So there!

Hunny

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[anderson]

Stand your ground HUNNY!
.......Stand your ground!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is hard to do what your doing.
We are sitting here, Thinking of you sending strength and inner peace as you clam back your power, my wister of hearts

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((hunny))))

You are right they cannot have your life. We understand what you are saying and that the work before you is hard and takes the wind out of the sails so to speak. But you are not alone for we are walking here to listen and to uphold you as you take these steps.

What they did was not right and it is not who you are. For each one of us the sense of who we were was taken away and we did not even know at the time it was okay to be anyone but who they allowed us to be. Taking it back is some of the hardest work we have to do but it is our right to do. But you can do this and we are right here standing strong with you.

Standing up to take ones self back takes strength and courage of that you have. With each step you take you become stronger and when each part begins to be able to see together the strength cannot be broken. Like anderson said "Stand you ground". It belongs to you.

Know that we are standing with you and sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. We love you and are here for you. Always.

dps

[krazy_phoenix]

(((((((((hunny)))))))))) - u go girl - stick it to 'em by reclaiming your power - they will not take your life!!

[complic8d]

GO HUNNY!!! GO HUNNY!!!

Hang in there and fight, hun!

[Hunny]

Thanks Buddies,

It has been a very introspective week having arrived at this point.

It appears there is no head knowledge of the healing that has gone on for the last 10 years or so by one of the older parts. There has needed to be huge spaces of time to explain the connections. How to explain this using words is like trying to capture the wind. It is like the psyche and spirit of the part has changed due to the internal awareness of memories and healings but a part of the brain of that same part was unaware of how she got to this healing. It is taking a lot of inner dialogue to explain and make the connections. She remembers being where she is but she doesn't have the knowledge of the connections and oh yes some of the memories have had to be gone over as the brain is a little like pudding in this regard.

You see the brain and body is/are very complex. There isn't a cookie cutter pattern here. The brain operates in time and space and that space is constantly fluctuating and undulating and moving forward and around. That space has no walls or boundaries and time is the friend and foe at the same time.

Realization of the healing has been joyful but the 'how' one got there is for her missing. The intellectual connections, in order to verbalize, write, communicate etc are like a learned process. Good grief, probably this is about as clear as mud to others but it has been rather huge here, in that the remembering has usually never been a problem, nor the time, nor the space but apparently arriving somewhere and not realizing what the process was or perhaps not the process but the connecting rods, is rather disturbing.

This will take some time. I was reassured that I would have this resolved by the time I am seventy. I think that was tongue-in-cheek smile I hope. But it really does emphasize process and not perfection. No one is going anywhere in a really fast way. Numbness comes to mind around this now.

I'll be here for you and thanks for your hands of friendship reaching this direction.

Hunny