[michelle421]

i have been so incredibly happy spending so much time with my partner over the last few months. she's been around pretty much all the time. for one, i'm glad that she is doing well and not feeling so stressed that she must go away so often. i love her so much! but also, being around more of the time has challenges since i'm sure some of her alters helped a lot with certain stressful situations. it's interesting how that is.

however, during the last few months i have also been thinking a lot about her other people and i wonder how they are doing. i care about all of them too, and i do enjoy spending time with them. i hope they are well, and i hope they have what they need. <-- that's such a cute icon because my partner and her 4 others make 5!

i have been thinking about J a lot in particular. i couldn't even remember the last time i got to hang out with him. well he was around yesterday and i am SO glad we got to spend the whole night together. it was good for us both. we always have such a great time talking. i really like that we have such good conversations and he was very helpful and supportive to me since i have been having a rough time lately with SI struggles. he really understands me, and i'm so glad we can be friends. we also spent some good time snuggling and we watched the incredibles. it was so comforting. before we went to sleep he told me that he had a lot of good memories from the evening. i'm so happy he and i could share a special night together.

i am trying to think of that now because i am still struggling. the cats are here snuggling with me but i feel a little alone. i really like thinking about happy memories to take my mind away from what hurts.

[justdontknow]

Michelle,

It is so good to hear that you had such a wonderful evening together with J. He sounds like a great support for you as well as your partner. I hope someday I will be able to find a partner who is as accepting of me and all my parts as you are with your partner. Thank you for posting here and being such a great support. Oh and thank you so much for being a great friend to my little Krista. She absolutely adores you.

Cris

[michelle421]

thank you cris!!

J actually used to fight a lot with my partner. it helped a lot when everyone started talking to each other and working together more. J has really grown up a lot and learned a lot. i am so proud of him.

i believe that there is someone out there who is right for you. it is possible! i'm glad that i can help show that it is possible.

also, i'm happy to be krista's friend! she is such a sweetheart!! i hope you are doing ok. you are so great! keep hanging on, i know that things can be really hard sometimes.

Originally Posted by justdontknow

Michelle,

It is so good to hear that you had such a wonderful evening together with J. He sounds like a great support for you as well as your partner. I hope someday I will be able to find a partner who is as accepting of me and all my parts as you are with your partner. Thank you for posting here and being such a great support. Oh and thank you so much for being a great friend to my little Krista. She absolutely adores you.

Cris

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((Michelle))))

Thank you for posting and I am sorry you are feeling so lonely. The feelings of SI are not easy and I understand those feelings or anyway for us but please take care of you for you are important, and no matter what you do not deserve to hurt anymore.

I am so glad that you had a good evening with J. I think that is great and the fact that you accept those within your partner is wonderful. It is so hard at times to allow them to be out for fear of rejection and non-acceptance. I worry a lot about that with those within myself. For so long they were rejected and called other things that they were not that it caused a lot of damage that we are still working through now.

Your support to your partner and those here means so much. Thank you for that and for caring and accepting each of us here. I hope that you will continue to grow with your partner and all within her as she grows within herself. Having that support means so much and it is crucial to being able to heal and move forward.

For many of us we fight to be who we are not letting some people know. It is hard when they are there and all you want is to be yourself. I know my family and children think I am crazy and that hurts. I have hidden so much as it was not safe to be. Even now that others accept us, sometimes it is so hard not to put up a shield to protect at any given moment we may need to do so.

Thank you for your post. I hope you are feeling better and that you know we are here for you. Know that we care and are listenig. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

[anderson]

Thank you for coming here. We miss the times to be able to sit and watch tv with the person that we are with. To be able to be with someone regardless who is out is a most precious gift of all. Our partner would let the dalmations have piggy back rids and let all of us play. But most of all it was knowing that who ever was out could just be held. He would even get smart with us and some of the biggers would get mad and tell him off. He would always laugh and say just checking to see if you are paying attention to me to.
Just dreaming of that puts a smile back on our face.
Thank you for reminding us of the good times.