Hi everyone,

Feeling totally naked around here lately. Like I've lifted up my skirt where I keep all my secrets, at least the ones I remember, and let you all take a peek.

Problem is, I've looked too and that has been a major setback in a lot of horrific ways. This is hard for me. According to my family and friends...I really have my s&*t together...

I did a lot of posting in Creative Corner. Nice, neat, tightly wrapped packages of garbage with punctuation marks and proper paragraphs. A bunch of scrubbed up goop that's sticky for sure but...now I'm sinking in quicksand.

The real uglies...the ones I don't talk, write or think about keep me hovering here in the safe place at 2 a.m. searching for protection or a cure...or at least a tree root I can grab hold of and try to pull myself up and out of the muck.

I guess I just wanted to say thanks to those who help and those who listen and those who just let me be.

Petunia

[Gemstone]

((((((((Petunia)))))))))))

((( Gem )))

Thanks for everything,

Petunia

[Monty_girl]

Petunia, reach up for the sunraise. Thinking of good warm sun rays to come your way.
Monty

[Kathyanita]

Petunia,

been there before too. . .funny how the separate forums can "feel" different and how it has to do with the ppl "present". . . so this is a good place for naked but not exposed. . .

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((petunia)))))))))))))))

i know the feeling of vulnerabity and fear over giving a part of self to another. it's such a vulnerable feeling.

i hope time helps to calm that.

we're here.

kd

Kathy,


You can ponder perpetual motion,
Fix your mind on a crystal day,
Always time for a good conversation,
There's an ear for what you say.


Petunia

we're here.



Thank you. You know that means a lot.

[wisewoman]

Petunia, we are all horribly human and vulnerable. I have no idea why we are created as such but we are. Your feelings are so strong and it feels like life and death. You need to feel validated and cared about. I hope I can give you both. You are a caring loving human, we are all vulnerable, we are all the same underneith. I wish you peace.

You are a caring loving human

Thank you so much.

You are sweet and kind and always make me feel cared for.

You're a nice warm fuzzy.

((((((((WW))))))))))

Petunia

[Kathyanita]

Petunia,

Bring a song and a smile for the banjo, better get while the gettin's good,
Hitch a ride to the end of the highway where the neons turn to wood.

[kerria]

((((((((((((Petunia))))))))))))

You are so brave. we all have secrets. i'm sorry that it's so hard and painful- i hope the feeling passes quickly.

Take care,
kerria

Kerria,

You reaching out in the middle of your own whirlwind, well, that says a lot about a person.

Thank you for that.

Petunia

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

We can hang here too ...come sit with me...and maybe when you feel safe talk on all things even the bad ..it is ok

I know it is...

Thanks...

(((((((((Sleeps))))))))

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

I am going to bed soon but wanted to close the night with something beautiful for you...You have to click on it I think cause it is big but I see you in there...

web page

((((((((((((petunia))))))))))
can relate right now. sinking myself.

now I'm sinking in quicksand

Not sinking anymore.

Stuck and losing consciousness.

See ya.

[shadowdancer]

i'm new and we haven't met but i'd like to be added to the list of people who've already posted here to let you know that if you can just reach a hand out of the mire our hands will be reaching back to help you. sounds cheesy, but it's true. hang in there.

-shadowdancer

((((((((((((((((petunia))))))))))))))
grab on--you can grab onto me if you want. maybe we can keep each other from losing it all together. if you are really all stuck and can't grab on, i can hold onto you until we can get out. just stay with us. i am trying to stay conscious. we could keep each other conscious. please post soon.

w_i

[shadowdancer]

*throws a long sturdy unbreakable rope*

hope that helps