Kerria,
I have had dreams about my dad, and think somethings there. I nevere wanna be alone with him, and ran from home at 16 as he eyeballed me and made inappropriate comments. I know. It is the worst hell. But I want to tell you that God is there, and he loves you. There are good people in this world, you just have to search . When I feel trapped and sad and panicked, I take a hot bubble bath and pray. Or I go on a walk. There are a lot of books to help ease the pain. Right to Innocence is a good one, as is Toxic Parents. Having Dissassociative is Gods merciful way of saving you from madness. Though it is by some and to ones self madness, it is actually a coping strategy. And you likely would have taken some route out by now without it. You are not a loser, or a bad person. You are a girl who happened to have a messed up family. Theres many of us out there. I sing a song to my kids when others pick on them and to myself as im often picked on, so I say to you also, Hold your head up high!Hold onto to the good things , and let the rest go. God bless , Stefanie
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I believe that God put us all here for a purpose, and that hope is always there for us. Even in our darkest hour, we can find someone of faith, to give us a hug, or tell us we will be fine. My purpose is to help others, and myself, to get through the pain and social stigmatization of mental illness. Lets work together for a brighter more happy life!
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