[allthegirls6]

I was at my therapy session yesterday and someone else comes along................. This person talking about padlocks on her mouth. I cant stand it. 5 people is enough for me. I dont want anyone else. Its been the 5 of us for about 1 year now and I was begining to feel sort of comfortable.

All the girls

[misty]

no matter how many it it is ok. when we hit the count of 100 it no longer mattered stoped counting. well it mattered but it didn't. Knew what is gona be is gona be. Cant say I like it but it is what it is.

[misty]

be safe stay safe!!!!

That has to be scary. Hope you soon feel better about this.

Caroline

[allthegirls6]

Ihate my life
Audrey

((((((((audrey))))))
w_i

[allthegirls6]

If it wasnt so funny i would say I need therapy!!! Aaaargh. What a day. Noi to worry. Im just back from my session with T. Im letting her down and myself. Try again tomorow.

[shadowdancer]

(((((((((all of you)))))))))) please take care! ALL of you are welcome to talk with me, including your newest member. welcome to her...i know it is hard for you but hopefully things will work out. stay safe.

-shadow

lets see I haven't counted how many and who for a bit where my memory states are concerned and now I'm curious so lets go for it -- theres Tee Tee, Tiny, Ree, Me, Myself, I, Mary, Katherine, Ann, Teena, Tinamarie, Gayle, louise, Sunny, Darlene, Margo, and Debbie that's 17 and I have been working on my DID for 4 and a half years if there are more which is most likely since I am still having time loss and so on about 10-20 percent of the time so at this rate in 4 years my therapist and I will have uncovered 24 pieces of memories that I am being triggered into - ok should I panic or rather am I going to - no. When I hit 5 I asked my therapist at that time how many were there she counted off what she experienced and had confirmation of and told me 8. Oh man I paniced I didn't like that number at all until I contacted those many professionals that were helping my therapist and I and I found out the lowest number of alters one professional worked with with one client was 10-15 and the most one professional worked with with one client was well over 100. 100! I liked the number 8 after that and stopped counting and worrying about numbers. From then on all that mattered was that my therapist and I located those separated memory pieces and put new coping skills in place so that I would no longer be triggered into those memories again and running on rerun from them so to speak. I promise as the numbers go up the world is not going to crash down on you. before you knew how many there was that many and you were ok right? The only difference here is you now know information that was already there. People deal with having this information many ways - some panic and crash not because of the alters doing anything but because they they are afraid. others like me turn it around and say ok so what you're here now and you were here before no change there so what can I find out about what I dont remember. I keep my drawing and crafts supplies well stocked as well as journal books and so on. and I draw, write and create until I know everything that memory contains, then I think about how or what I can do when I get triggered by that content when some of it is present in my every day and presnt life. once the coping tools are in place its smooth sailing. hang in there.

[allthegirls6]

There is something wrong with me becaasue I cant even manage to speak to my therapist properly and we have a problem and Im not managing with it and she wont be able to manage either if we get angyry. Im trying hard not to be angry about this problem but its going to kill me in the end. My therapist doesnt deserve all the crap I give her. Its only a matter of time before I get really angry

Audrey

[allthegirls6]

Im not managing

[shadowdancer]

i'm here. we can talk whenever you feel safe enough to. ((((((((((((all the girls))))))))))))) take care.

-shadow

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((allthegirls)))))))))))))))))

we're here when you're ready.

be safe,

kd

(((((((audrey))))))))
take it one moment at a time. i understand how you feel. its a scary place and feels so unsteady. i'm there too. wanna walk with us for awhile??
w_i et all