Hey there,

I see that I posted in The Garden forum, as my 7 year old "alter" Wissy. It was a very strange experience. It was like I was still there, but deep inside and I couldn't come out. My child was in control, I needed to be the child at the time, because I wasn't feeling safe. And it was strange, because I just felt like I wanted to play! So in a way, it was nice, but I'm also disturbed.

What was this? I notice that these "alters" only come out when I feel like absolute crap. :/ Besides that, they pretty much remain hidden. So far I only have two.

Can anybody relate to this? I don't think I could have a DD, because I've been diagnosed as BP and BPD already...but could I have very strong alter-egos? Not quite alters, but separate egos that come out strong when I need them?

I'm very confused.

[Miracle1986]

Dissociative Disorders can be easily misdiagnosed.
If you have a therapist, I would recommend telling him/her about your experience of
being still there, but deep inside and not being able to come out.

[justdontknow]

Originally Posted by melissa.recovering

Hey there,

I see that I posted in The Garden forum, as my 7 year old "alter" Wissy. It was a very strange experience. It was like I was still there, but deep inside and I couldn't come out. My child was in control, I needed to be the child at the time, because I wasn't feeling safe. And it was strange, because I just felt like I wanted to play! So in a way, it was nice, but I'm also disturbed.

What was this? I notice that these "alters" only come out when I feel like absolute crap. :/ Besides that, they pretty much remain hidden. So far I only have two.

Can anybody relate to this? I don't think I could have a DD, because I've been diagnosed as BP and BPD already...but could I have very strong alter-egos? Not quite alters, but separate egos that come out strong when I need them?

I'm very confused.

Melissa,

We cannot diagnose for you, but we can tell you that if you want to know for sure, you would have to seek advise and counsel from your therapist who could recommend someone who specializes in DID. If you do not need to know for sure, remember to take care of yourself in the ways you feel you need to. If you feel like playing, play! If you feel like coloring, color! Do the things you feel like doing (as long as they are legal and will not harm anyone). Try not to suppress these "others" whether they be alternate personalities or alter egos. They may be trying to help protect you. I do not know for sure obviously, but that would be my recommendation. Many hugs and stuffies from the Hotel.

Cris and the Hotel

Thank you for your replies.
I have my first therapy session today and hopefully they will understand what I'm trying to communicate with them, regarding this topic.

[justdontknow]

If you can and would like to, please let us know how it goes for you Melissa. I hope it goes well.

Cris

[Nupoet64]

(((((Melissa)))))...I call it being hyjacked in my body,lol. I ahve had concious awareness of and alter...it was making me stop talking about a very scarey topic with my husband. It came out adn would not allow me to talk. I had to just sit and wait for hubby to get done shopping and then it switched...released me...about half way home. It was bizzar. It was a 10 yr old little girl...I felt like I was sitting on a creek bank swishing my feet in the cool water and singing. It really unnerved my husband...he ahd never seen a dramatic switch before, not in my waking hours. He kept asking me if I was ok...the alter wouldonly let me say, "I am fine, I will wait right here for you." But I was watching everything, but my body was numb.

Thanks for your replies.

Turns out yesterday wasn't a meeting with a therapist, but a social worker. I'm still on the waiting list for a therapist.

I got an ECT treatment yesterday and besides some negative side effects (memory loss, weakness, nausea), my overall mood has improved. So I haven't had any more issues with "switching" since Tuesday. Hopefully this improved mood lasts!

Thanks again everyone.