[DancingAlone]

frozen in time can’t move shadows lurking
cries for help fall on deaf ears can’t move
stop shaking she screams hiding away wringing hands
trapped in cave, wolves at door howling hungry
dear god help me help me no one hears where are you
cold cold cold shivers grip like steel can’t move can’t speak
shadows moving in then out claws close ripping grabbing
faster and faster running away running running what to
have to hide have to wash away sins have to breathe
gasping for air clinging to walls of slippery glass
shattered mind can’t think thick trapped help me
words words words scream silent echoes of ghosts past
go away hurt hurt hurt go away leave alone
medicine hurry hurry to brain stop screams
go to bed pray help help bundle safe room
don’t cry be quiet don’t make a noise don’t tell
stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it
scared to cry scared to breathe no no no no no
forgive me can’t lie can’t stop words scared to put here
scared not to time to tell me scared so scared please help

[krazy_phoenix]

(((((((((((((((((((dancingalone)))))))))))))))))))) if ok.
We hear you. You are safe here with us, here on PC. Keep talking, share your burden, there are big shoulders here.
I'm so sorry you have such pain.
Sending you light, bright pure warming white light to banish the cold and dissolve the fear.
kp

[Nupoet64]

(((((Dancing))))))...We heare adn are listening. Many safe hugs.
Here are a couple of links. I listen to these when I am greatly distressed. It helps to calm me.

They are done in Cherokee and English. I pray they help sooth you, as well.

[DancingAlone]

thank you all so much, means everything to be able to say. was a bad night, a friend explained was old memories back to haunt, get to safe place, hold safe things, ground in today. ohhh was so hurt and scared. not alone now keep saying. had to work today...THAT wasn't fun. slept most of rest of day. will definitely be here to give hugs, support to others who suffer. they mean the world. should have done all this years ago but only wanted to run, hide, ignore, push memories way deep inside, hide self. natural to protect i guess, but not good if hide all life. now i know.

(((((safe hugs to all who feel the pain)))))

(thank you Nupoet64)

[anderson]

DAncing Alone,
we hear you to. just know that we are thinking of all within you and may you feel safe here.

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((DancingAlone))))

Just wanted to ask how you are doing today? Know that we are here for you and listening and hearing you. I know those terror filled nights when it seems the past has slipped back in through the cracks and will not leave. That cold cold feeling of being trapped and the fear that shivers with every breath.

Remember your tools and self care hon. Pull out those safety things that help make you feel safe and comforted. Wrap yourself in a warm blanket that feels safe and good. Hold something special that does not remind you of the past but something of today that has a good memory to it.

Call your t when you get so scared even if his office is not open many times they have an answering machine. The many times we have called and just listened to t's voice for comfort and to ground to the present. The flashbacks are so hard and feel as though they are happening all over again but they are in the past.

I know that they seem very real and like you are right in the midst of them all over again. I validate how they make you feel as we have been walking through them over this past week. Sometimes it is so hard to reach out but you did it and I am really proud of you. Each time you do that you step in front of those thoughts putting them behind you, taking back your control.

Keep reaching and asking. Practice those grounding skills when you are not in a crisis so that it will be easier to pull them to the forefront when those memories come. Sometimes it is hard as we do not always think to do it but they are there and when you can reach for them they will not seem so unfamiliar.

Remember to breath hon. Breathing can slow down the anxiety of those feelings. I know it is hard at times but practice your breathing whenever you can. For us we try to practice breathing from our diaphram when we are sitting and resting. Concentrating on the breathing from your gut and not from your throat will help you as it makes you pay attention to how you are breathing and slows down the panic.

Just know that we are here for you and care so much. Thank you for reaching out and taking that risk to let us know where you were. Keep posting as you can. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

[justdontknow]

DancingAlone,

We are here and we hear you. May you find peace and solace here. Safe hugs if and when ok.

Cris

[Miracle1986]

(((DancingAlone)))

[DancingAlone]

thank all of you dear people for your concerns and gentle hugs. they are greatly and deeply appreciated.

the ghosts have retreated and the pain is silent for the moment. still sleeping too much and a sense of thickness on the edges of the brain trying to block out the images of long ago. but the healing needs to be done, have waited way too long. it's time now.

i have my "safe" things always near, and my wonderful new bed of comfort to hopefully still the nightmares, or at least offer solace when they appear.

but now i come here. am so incredibly encouraged that i can share now what i held within for too long. thank you all for this gift of hope.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Dancing Alone

You truly are not alone in this struggle, this fight for yourself

Morgana