Affirmation--too hard to accept now

after all these years after my uncle SA me, i finally contacted my Aunt who i have always been close to. i told her about him--not details, just that he did when i was around 14 or 15 and on and when i was about 5 or 6. she said she believed me and that she believes he was capable of doing that. and the timing all fits together.
relief that i am finally believed by someone in the family. (she wishes i didn't wait so many years--she was also abused--by her grandfather--and no one believed her).
total panic and anxiety and sad and mad and i am once again dissolving away. T is out of town till we see her Tues. Do i try to stay present and deal or do i let my emotionally deficient alter keep things at a calm non feeling level till Tues.
i don't know if i can allow the memories to come--not alone here anyway.
w_i

WI your the bravest person I know

Iris

((((((W_i)))))))

I wish I had suggestions to make. I don't know what you whould do. Have you people you can call on for support since your T is unavailable?

(((((((((((((w_i))))))))) I agree with allthegirls
Caroline et al

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i'm so glad that you were finally believed but i'm so sorry that your Aunt knew from experience. i would try to stay front as often as you can to help deal with this in bits and pieces. if it becomes too much then i would trade off so that you don't have to deal for awhile. putting it off entirely will just make it harder to come back to while immersion in it could leave you feeling completely helpless/hopeless esp since your T is not here at the moment. so i would sort of rotate between the two and only take as much as you can handle at a time.

((((((((((w_i))))))))) i wish i were more help. you guys can PM me anytime you want/need to, ok?

-shadow

You're so brave to make such a leap .