[Miracle1986]

I know I'm a teen so I'm supposed to post in the "teen alters garden",
but I really need to get this off my chest and I feel more people will read what I have to say if I write it in here.
Sorry if I'm not supposed to write here, you can move it if you want.
(also, just a warning, I'm gonna talk about sex related stuff, no details though)

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I friggin' hate not having my own "outside" body!!!!

I hate the fact that the husband makes moves on me before he knows I am out...
I tell him it's me and he stops and walks away, but I still feel... icky afterwards... I don't know why.
I guess it's cuz he's like more than double my age. There was this one time, when him and Amanda were...
doing stuff, and I came out (by accident... it just happened... I don't know why we switched).
I was so freaked out that I didn't say anything until after it was over. He apologized a TON...
as if that would make me feel better. I felt violated!!! I know it wasn't his fault,
and I know that he would have stopped if I would have said it was me, but... I don't know...

And I really really really REALLY hate not being able to walk and do stuff on the outside like I can on the inside.
On the inside, I can run and jump everything like that, but not on the outside, cuz of the stupid cerebral palsy!!!
I hate having to use a freakin' wheelchair when I am out. MY legs work just fine! Grrr.... sometimes I feel like I am
trapped in this body. Not only because it doesn't look anything like my inside body, but it doesn't even work right!!!!

I swear... sometimes I just wish I could disappear from this body and never have to come back. They probably wouldn't even miss me.
Ugh... now I'm just playing the world's tinyest violin ...
I know nobody wants to hear about my pathetic sob story, so yeah... I'm gonna shut up now.
to waste your time and take up space with this thread.

From: a freakin pathetic and emotional sarah

[justdontknow]

hey sarah. i totally know what you mean. my name is mason, im 15 and im in a 32 year old girls body. inside im like almost a full grown man (ok maybe not quite yet), but outside im seen as a girl. what makes it worse is that our host/core whatever you want to call her is kinda like not skinny if you know what i mean and it makes it hard for me to do the stuff i wanna do cause of all the extra wait shes got. i get real sad ya know when i think about not being me when im out here. i like play the guitar and i love it. but when her mom comes in she always calls me cris even if i tell her that im mason. it makes me mad. i just wanna be me, but i like know thats never gonna happen. i try not to like always think about it but i like cant stop sometimes. inside im me, but out here im not. its not fair. -mason

[Miracle1986]

hey mason,
i'm sorry you "totally know what i mean"... this crap blows!

[Nupoet64]

(((((Sarah & Mason)))))...So sorry it is so hard for you guys....

[Lillyleaf]

Hey,
I am Sky I am 15-17 or somethin like that but I am to lazy to keep track. But I todally get what you mean. Being in a body that is so like diffrent sucks big time. I know I am not a girl so I cant relate to that whole tucky thingy goin on but I can simpithys. When I am out we have a lot of friends that our girls and I want to really like hit on them cus they are hot. But I can't because I am in a girld body. And I am one of the only guys here. I get what you mean. Wish I could help ya but I cant. And like dont feel like you are trapped cus in a way it is like that but we are trapped in school but it is the favoriet place to go sometimes.. try to make the mest of it and stuff.... I mean once our host is like older I will be able to drink lol jk jk jk!!

~Sky

Hey girl,
I todally get what you mean! I hate being in the body like this it really really stinks. I am 18 but I am stuck being in a body that is 14?! What is up with that! But like the old people say "MAke the most of it" I guess... (I think it is still kind of stupide) But I think that it would be really really cool if just for one day I could be me. But I can't. I hope you are better soon! And purple rocks!! Maybe you could have a braclet that is your favoret color and put it on everytime you are out so he like knows it is you!...

~Lillac


Hey,
I am Firefly I am 15. I dont addmit it but I hate being tuched. I freak out and dont get over it well. Sometimes our friends hug us and I freak out and they look at us weird because they just dont know. I wish I could tell them. I feel like they dont respect me but I know they cant hep it. I cant blame them but I can relate. CAn you do something that he can see that shows it isnt you? I am sorry about the weel chair... I wish I could help you... THank you for posting though I can relate compleatly,

~Firefly

[Miracle1986]

Originally Posted by Lillyleaf

When I am out we have a lot of friends that our girls and I want to really like hit on them cus they are hot. But I can't because I am in a girld body.

i think you could hit on them if you wanted to even thou your in a girls body.
i mean, some girls like other girls hitting on them (not saying that your a girl,
but since your in a girls body it would look like a girl was hitting on another girl, ya know?

Maybe you could have a braclet that is your favoret color and put it on everytime you are out so he like knows it is you!...

hahaha... its funny you say that, cuz we actually all have bracelets that we made with our names on them, and mine is of course purple!

I wish I could tell them. I feel like they dont respect me but I know they cant hep it.

have you ever thought about telling them about the D.I.D.?

[Lillyleaf]

Lol I bet the other girls here would kill me!!
I mean what boy would date someone that acts lesbo haph the time? lol ~sKY

haha that is brillent I want a braclet to say my name!!

How can I tell them about DID?? I mean... I want them to be our friend because they like us for who we are and all
... but last time we told a friend they ran away screaming...

~Firefly

[Miracle1986]

Originally Posted by Lillyleaf

I mean what boy would date someone that acts lesbo haph the time? lol ~sKY

some guys might like that... you never know.

haha that is brillent I want a braclet to say my name!!

you should so make one!

... but last time we told a friend they ran away screaming...

~Firefly

that sucks, but that just means they weren't really a real friend anyway.

[Eriksplus]

Hello.
Obviously 50 isn't the age of a teenager, but I can understand where you come from exactly--ironically enough my problem is the complete oppisite from you--an older man trapped in a younger woman's body. Look at it this way, at least you're the same sex as the body you're seen as!
I'm fighting with myself not to go on a rant about this myself *chuckles*

(Webber)Erik