just wanting someone with whom to talk

now hubby wants kids taking turns so he has someone to go out with him soul-winning every weekday and twice on Saturday during the holidays...they are rebelling...i don't blame them so i am in the middle. i cannot keep this up...won't

((((((((silentwhisper))))))))))

No, this is not good at all! You know there is one thing to taking care of others and that is very admirable, however, you have to take care of your household first and foremost and your the husband should KNOW that!!!

Second there are shelter's and dose not the shelter have provisions for this situation. Especially with the situations that you do face as a family? I am here and listening the best I can? I care, I am so sorry...I know this dose NOT help in the least. Your mental health surely is not doing well at all. Can you call your T...Is there someone that you can confide in...This is not a time for you to stand alone....Biggest hugs

He took the lady to a shelter...within the hour she was kicked out for refusing to take a shower. He says she is on the streets now. It is terrible weather here. He does not want to talk about it. I feel it is my fault for not wanting her here. He won't talk to me about any of the situations right now.
I have no t and noone irl who will listen. I am worthless.

SilentWhisper,

Your not worthless....Maybe the reason he is not talking to you about it is because he knows it would hurt you more. Maybe in reality it's a loving thing...Can you call a crisis line? Are there any in your area that would be available to listen so maybe the could offer you some helpful solutions? Maybe dunno i am still knew to this site but up above maybe there's some helpful information that you can get some points from and try to stay grounded. I can't for the life of me imagine how hard this is..Sometimes especially this time of year holiday seasons (for some) can really bring about allot of depression in families pain like this. Money issues, etc that may already be there just explode cuz of stress...Please keep posting. Your doing a good job. Your hanging on despite all this craziness around you. Hold on silentwhisper your stronger then the situation. You can do this

ty...today woke up to a leaky roof and a daughter who thinks noone thinks she is important because we won't stop ourplans to take her to the pool...like this is Wednesday and we have tons of church stuff to do and she takes it personal! yet what is she doing to help??? ty all for listening

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I used to hate the saying what dose not breaks us makes us stronger, but damn I am starting to think it must be TRUE!! LOL...You almost have to laugh although I am sure as you read this you must be screaming this is NOT funny However, not sure your daughters age, mine the youngest is 9 and as sure as I was reading your post I promise my stove was going out my car had left us stranded (it only had been the battery thank goodness) our water heater is turning rust colored our pud bill came and is over 500 dollars and this is our first one for the WINTER and my husband is the sole income provider. However is needed some serious medical attention do to the fact that I made him see the dr.s and now it seems that our world is just unraveling!!!!!!!! Then my daughter is like YOU, you guy's don't care about me!!! Are you kidding was all I could think...I was like what do you mean? She say's all you care about is the car and daddy's appointment's and I just want to make cookies or something like that and you keep putting it off! Wow! I just had to go inside and allow someone else to take care of it, as at that point I could have screamed do to the extreme amount of stress. However she's just a child and has no ideas of the chaos that the adults are going thru...That's what good parent's do..They protect there children...Something that allot of parent's didn't do for us? Not sure of your particular situation, however we just have to laugh at this crap that goes on!! It's crazy world that we live in with these pitfalls all over the place. Just keep posting and know that as long as your still here it can be managed. Your amazing...your making thru one minute at a time....I think your strength and endurance are incredible especially with ALL your going thru...Biggest of all hugs k...Here and listening

Thanks so much for the hugs. Though it saddens me to think that you are struggling too, it helps to know I am not alone. Sadly, I have wanted to explode and say you should enjoy me while you have me as I might have cancer so nothing is guaranteed, but I have kept myself in check. I just really find myself longing for a break, a chance to rest deep inside. Hubby and I said we would not get ourselves anything this year since money is tight yet I feel I should...idk...part of me just wants to empty my house and have nothing tying me down.

(((((silentwhisper)))))))))
I have been known and I wish I was kidding to have my house emptied accept maybe a few things of my kids and cooking utensils and the computer things like that but couches tables everything but like clothing just so like I could feel the emptiness....My husband would come home and be like what did you do??? I would put it on my front lawn for FREE I dunno?? Seriously the freedom from within would feel so great However I do NOT suggest that...I remember the kids and my husband being so furious but yeah I get it, I get it...I felt the weight some how of life just lifted off like then some how I could just RUN.......Still here listening...And caring