[Gemstone]

I’m having a really rough time in t lately. I’m thinking it may be better not to know some of the things I am learning. I don’t want to remember some of this stuff. I know there are probably good memories missing, but I don’t know if it is worth it to live through all the bad again.

I don’t think I can do this much longer. I’m so tired. I feel like quitting.

{{{{{ Gem }}}}}

You need to tell your T and slow things down.

It's my own personal belief that we don't need to remember everything to heal. Sometimes it can be too much.

We can get so caught up in the the process that we wear the yuckiness like our skin. It's okay not to put the yuckies on every day.

In between sessions maybe you can try and focus on something else.

Maybe start your Shelter From The Storm project.

Most of all, rest every second you can.

Safety first!

Petunia

[CedarS]

I so agree with Petunia on this.

You get to slow things down, you have that right. You get to set your own pace as to what works best for -you-.

All the best,
Sarah

I don't believe the person needs to know every thing. In fact as hard as I work on my treatment programs I most likely won't know everything. But I choose to keep going trying to access as many memories good and bad because 12 years ago I chose not to continue trying to remember things. That came back and bit me big time in the form of depression, flashbacks and nightmares 4 years ago which resulted in my locking my son out of the house so that I could jump through a second floor window. I was lucky some part of me didn't want to die and called a friend and my son went for one of the managers. police were called and my son was placed in foster care. my son and I went through a year of invividual counseling, family counseling and I took classes up the you know what. finally he was allowed to come home but the damage for him of watching me go over the edge and the foster care system was done. he came home with reactive attachment disorder, PTSD and a bunch of other things. He will not be coming home again until he is 18. If I had to do it over again I would have remained in therapy and continued fighting to remember what has been repressed. If I had continued working on it I would have known my triggers that sent me into reacting from memories that were burried. Every one has to make their own choices but know with those choices comes consequences. In making a decision like this I think the person needs to know what the possible ramifications of making those decisions could possibly be. In this case years down the road getting triggered and reacting based on a repressed memory. Talk with your therapist so that you can make an informed decision not just a decision possibly based in fear, and stress. take care.

[Gemstone]

Thanks everyone. I do need to slow things down. I'm just overwhelmed.

[BlueFaith]

((((((((((((Gem))))))))))))))
Yeah, just slow down a bit. I'm thinkin' of you.

[shadowdancer]

i definitely think slowing it down a bit is a good idea. take some time with your T to maybe work on other less heavy issues. you need time to adjust to what you have already learned and shoving new stuff at yourself right now won't allow you to process things the way you need to. i bet your T will be very supportive of you and helpful when she knows you're having such a rough time. take very good care of yourself and like petunia says, safety first!


shadow

Please take it slowly.
Crystal