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hello its edward. im feeling kind of sad.

I fought with trentons partner and she called me a piece of **** and i think she meant it. i treat trenton badly a lot. but i don't want to anymore i want to change. i just get so MAD all the TIME

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY

sorry im not triyng to yell

im just frustrated. she says she loves me and im a good boy but before that she calld me **** until i told her im trying to be better

i dont know what to belive really

If youre wondering who i am im nevermore, but my real names Edward

trenton is well, not able to be himself all the time. he gets depressed esliy and he is bad at comunicating

i try to do that for him a lot of the time

sorry if im rambiling

and sorry for my bad spelling i never really paid atteniton in school time. I dont have time for that stuff

Anyway i just wanted to know what you all thought of what im trying to get better and stuff.

-Edward (Nevermore..)

Edward,

I think trying to get well is a good goal.

Thanks for posting.

i keep trying but slip up constantly i yell at him and i dont even realise waht im saying utnl is ay it.

i wish i could just fly away

Awe do not fly away. It takes time to change. maybe you could scream on paper before you yell at trenton. Or yell in a pillow. then talk to trenton and trenton's partner. The anger and rage has to get out in some way. Exercise can also help quiet the yelling. Everyone, remember to breathe....a deep breath in.......then blow out the breath as if blowing out a candle......you are all working hard to get to a new place. Mistakes will happen...just keep trying and note the mistakes will lessen over time. Keep up the good work and kudos for your efforts...all of you.

i try breathign an i sitll yell and i get mad, the other day i hit my head over and over on the wall and i scared her.

i worry she'll sent me to the menatla asylum again, i dont want taht, i kee;p trying to calm down and i try and try.

hopefulloy i will beable to calm down enought.

thaknyou for belive in me.

it meants alot to me.

Hang in there ((((backwardinsideofme))))))) and try hitting a pillow or tearing up papers that aren't in use or old phonebooks. Magazines help to....what ever you do, don't hit your head for you.

Keep on posting and btw


Crew