Really not up to things

I'm not sure exactly where I belong right now.
So sad I can't stand it.
So angry that I'm sick to my stomach
So overwhelmed with triggers that I can't think straight.
I need to go where it is safe
but if I go back inside, and no one wants to come out and then what will happen?
Crystal

Crystal,

Can you call your T? You need to talk this through with her before it gets too bad. You shouldn't have to go through this alone, sweetie. Give her a call or keep talking here. PM if you want. But don't try to do it all alone.

Petunia

((((((Crystal)))))))

I agree with Petunia. Sounds like you have a huge amount going on right now and you need (and deserve) support. Please ask for it, OK?

Caroline

{{{{Crystal}}}}}

Petunia gave some good advice. Can you call your t?

I see her tomorrow.
I'm not liking H very much--and I know it's cause when I'm here and he expects *w_i* to pick up his slack and do stuff he should've done it triggers some of my issues with him. I begin to feel used, unappreciated, and patronized. "...do take a nap you'll feel better..." like all it takes is a nap...
all the yrs of keeping quiet...not saying how I feel...letting him use me...not being appreciated for what I did...
Doesn't matter...sorry. It'll pass. Just suck it up and put on that happy face...maybe after a rest, someone else will take over and finish out this lousey day. There's still supper and helping him lay tile in the addition...I'm going to eat more junk food and stuff it all...
Crystal

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I hear you. I feel like that sometimes too.

Caroline

It's too much---everything is just too much.
C

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Come andhide in the safe room. I found some good things to play with. Maybe that will help you not to feel so scared.
Caroline

Crystal, I think you should do only what you can and leave the rest. I know its hard but you got feelings too and they are important. So go with how you feel and do ONLY what youhave to and leave the rest. Wait till you see your T and in the mean time you gotta take care of you.

I dont know if it helps but here is a hug from each and everyone of us girls

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you shouldn't have to go it alone and you shouldn't have to pick up his slack. lazy man. you are very much valued and appreciated here. we know how special you are and how hard you all work just to keep things afloat. i, for one, don't know how you do it. i say let him pick up his own crap and make his own food. w_i is a WIFE not a SLAVE. i hope that you can tell your t all this and that she can help you to feel better and maybe figure out a way to give you a break. you deserve some safe time too. why don't you alternate between Sad Land and Grouchy Town and Safe Room... maybe that will help? can you go inside and talk to any of the rest and see if they'd be willing to come out for a bit and give you a rest? they might be happy to help.

please feel free to PM me anytime and i will be happy to listen. i think you are very important and that you deserve better than what you're getting. (((((((Crystal))))))))


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