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I have developed in the past few months a fear of laying my head down on my pillow to sleep .. so many voices interject so loud in my head that i leterally have to scream inside to shut them up! It could be one word from one then several from another and it is getting so loud i cant sleep ..
also my short term memory is very out of the ordinary for simple things i would do and forget - along with that i dont go many places anymore because it takes me hours to get out of a store ..even with a list in hand.
i get lost and loose all since of time .. when i get home i am overwhelmed with anxiety of dredding when i will have to go out again for anything.
I had to get my eyes examed for example .. had to be dilated for a good exam .. i selected glasses and was having them processed .. when i got home and when my eyes were clear i noticed i chose mens eyewear and the price was enormous .. i hardly remember the purchase where all the numbers were bein explained to me ... that same day i had to call and cancel them..they reimbursed me.thank god!
I am not in therapy - i cannot take drugs because adverse reactions to all of them.
i really dont know what can make the chatter in my head stop at night.
in the day it happens too but i distract them with tv or music.
i have inside me one who loves music and i can listen to music sometimes without a radio on in my own head.. clearly.
Do any of you experience these too?
I really need support. thanks

Hmm have you ever heard of hypnagogia?

It's basically you're body slipping into dream states. You may see or hear things. Auditory hallucinations or visual. It's more common when one is under high stress or in narcoleptics. And it may be accompanied by lucid dreaming.

For me it sounds like someone is RIGHT up against my ear whispering. Sometimes it's my name. Sometimes it's a random word I can't make out. Sometimes it's garbled, short sentences that don't make sense. It sort of feels unreal and sometimes it feels evil. (which is common among hypnagogia). It may not explain all of it, but it may get worse at night because of this.

Otherwise, yes I do experience this. But I outright tell them to stop. "It's not safe to come out right now". If I allow them to roam, they make me really ill. It's like being on a really wicked roller coaster. I have gone through many days spent all my waking hours on the computer "shopping" for each voice in my head, only to not buy anything in the end because another one would scold about money spending. And another would say how "stupid" it was to place said item in the cart. I eventually had to take back control or I felt I was going to loose my insides. It makes me nauseous thinking about it. The ride of that is enough to make a person sick. I in no way got rid of them totally, but for the most part the ones that are harmful don't come unless I permit them too. I'm sorry you're going through this.

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i have never heard of the term hynogogia before...that ia a new one for me.
i know what you mean about the purchases and the ones who stop you ..
that is why it makes it hard for me to shop .. i will have a list and i stick to itfor the most part .. if i remember to look at it! i will go through the store and get what i need - many times i will see things i do not need and put it in the cart sometimes conciously sometimes i will get to the check out and take everything back except for waht i really need .. there have been many many times i have shopped for hours and then put everything back and leave..that is when the voices in my head will say what are you doing in here? get out of here now! so i put everything up and leave.
every voice is inside my head not external .. it is constant and annoying ..at night is is so much worse. i do a lot of scolding negative voices inside .. try to console other ones .. my head is so busy most the time i do not go out very much.,and when i do i plan it to do whatever it is and get back home.
I just want a night of sleep without noise in my head..
I am under a lot of stress lately many issues that are not mine but worry me constantly.that is probably activating all this I just dont know how to stop it.

[hobbittmom]

I've heard of hypnogogia. I think I've tried it. I've done it when I was little. Right now I only have one voice in my head and she talks all the time. I have other alters who are good and they don't talk. I just read their emotions. I like them and have had them since I was little. I just need to get rid of this one voice. It's taking time and I'm patient. It'll happen. I have faith. Then I'll have my good parts.
I'm sorry you're having trouble. Sometimes music helps with sleep. Sometimes a bath or curling up with a blanket. I'm sorry you're having trouble. I am having trouble too. Hang in there.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by hobbittmom

I've heard of hypnogogia. I think I've tried it. I've done it when I was little. Right now I only have one voice in my head and she talks all the time. I have other alters who are good and they don't talk. I just read their emotions. I like them and have had them since I was little. I just need to get rid of this one voice. It's taking time and I'm patient. It'll happen. I have faith. Then I'll have my good parts.
I'm sorry you're having trouble. Sometimes music helps with sleep. Sometimes a bath or curling up with a blanket. I'm sorry you're having trouble. I am having trouble too. Hang in there.

hypnogogia isnt something you try or do. its a sleep disorder where your body feels paralyzed and you hear sounds voices, in other words having audio and sensory hallucinations.

heres a link that explains it more in detail.

http://www.sleepdex.org/hypnogogia.htm

people with DID can have this problem and they can have a problem where their alters become active and vocal at night. before I was integrated I would lay awake listening to the chatter of my alters voices. for me it wasnt scarey. probably because hearing voices is something that happened every day of my life anyway because I had DID.

to the original poster

my suggestion is contact your treatment providers, let them know whats going on. if its hypnogogia there is medications that can help.

if its from a dissociative disorder your treatment providers can help you with establishing a routine that will calm you and your alters at night so that they are not chattering so much at night.

[shame]

The sleep disorder also makes sense because i do have sleep apnea and a couple other sleep disorders . Voices stay with me all day but so distracted most the time they do not bother me too much although it does make it hard to concentrate...and stay focused on present things i am doing. At night it becomes intense ..making it hard to fall asleep and stay asleep. It seems they have a lot to say some with strong opinions.
It make me just not want to go to bed at night .. i am very tired through the day because of the broken sleep patterns.
Until i read the article about the sleep disorder i had never heard of that term ..thanks for sharing that with me. I had heard of sleep paralysis just did not understand it fully.

[vickielholt]

i am new here and sorry to but in on a post but the hearing voices is what is happening with me on a daily basis some days i cant even get a single train of thought going because the voices just wont go away and leave me alone i feel trapped by them is that normal. still figuring things out and im scared to death