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Old Mar 15, 2011, 10:56 AM
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Parts are complaining about T.
They say this:

"Your so called "T" has alters himself! How did you think you meet?! We arranged it with - (mentioning names of T`s supposed alters) so that you could both meet and recall us! Be more conscious!"

They claim to know T`s alters years ago, from the night. Some fell in love, had wonderful sex and a lot of other fun together! Then they had an idea "to end this drama" - to get me and him the "outside selves" to know all the mess and trauma. They hope that we both get into a mental hospital where they will be free to run and be noticed and we will come together. Heal.

The worst is that they claim that T and me dissociate for a few minutes during sessions and do some sexual things!

I really just don`t feel like shaming myself and telling him. WTF? He will throw me into hospital with schizophrenic diagnosis or something. He is "The T" and he knows and he is not supposed to have alters and trauma like my alters claim he does. Earlier my parts proved their existence for me in a very unpleasant way.

I myself am planing on leaving the country sooner or later but one of the parts - The Tough Survivor - is so badly in love with him/or his "parts" as she claims - that she is very sad and hurting. The intense feelings she and some of the girls all share for T or his so called parts...and flash backs of things they did when taking over our bodies....Make me feel really threatened!

I am really afraid!
If its true then he will deny and i can have trouble
If its not then phew! Thanks God!....but...who knows?

I used to doubt so many stories...and they way they proved me to themselves was pretty damaging....yet i cannot be as bold as just claiming to know my therapist is sick himself!

I know you can say that this is all NONSENSE but...i guess i did not just came here to hear about THIS possibility. I have been ignoring this and discounting this for a while but it depresses me and sticks with my plans!

I know i can:
Leave therapy
Tell him...
Stay like this and see what happens

Parts also claim that he has dangerous alters that can attack if we leave or if we don`t satisfy them..and that they are all tricky...we cannot hear them if we don`t concentrate and that he is in complete denial...

Today i am lonely I am sick and being achy triggers body memories....

Damn. I wish this was only in my head. This is scary. Too scary to deal with ! I thought to myself to keep quiet and ~if~ anything of that is true then it will prove itself later to us somehow!

Why should i disgrace myself with such horrible disrespect for T?!

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Old Mar 20, 2011, 09:10 AM
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I am SO sorry your post has gone this long without some kind of reply. It sounds so scary to be where you are right now. I hate it when others inside are pulling power plays.
Could you record your sessions?
How do you feel about your time with T?
Are you getting close to something others want to sabotage?
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Thanks for this!
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Old Mar 21, 2011, 12:39 PM
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well....Times has gone by.. i left therapy meanwhile. And not just because T might have alters. Alters or no alters....HE is not a sensitive therapist and i get hurt by therapy more than I heal
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Old Mar 21, 2011, 01:05 PM
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hello , dont run from therapy and healing, even if u need to find a new T.
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Old Mar 21, 2011, 02:33 PM
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Like me it seems like more that just one of you posts under this name. Hi

I have never found a T that everyone inside agreed on. Some times it is a matter of letting everyone work with the type of T they work best with... One at a time though.

I think therapy is important and would encourage all of you to keep looking into it.

It might help if you made a list of qualities you want in a T and posting it where everyone can write on it (appoint a scribe for littles who can't write yet). It will give you someplace to start when looking for a new T. But remember no T is going to be everything so there may need to be compromises.
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Old Mar 21, 2011, 02:35 PM
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BTW I encourage everyone to express their feelings here. It might be a good way for you all to be able to hear each other and get some outside feedback too.
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Old Mar 22, 2011, 05:18 AM
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huh - thank you both. Funny how just after this is no longer relevant people start to answer. The universe works in interesting ways...I must say that before i went to therapy i felt by far more free and authentic. This is funny. These month T did not even consider us he said i had PTSD and that people who had that do things they forget just as well. So there was nothing and - alters most of them except for one man - WANTED to stay with T! But it was ME who left - and the leaving has nothing to do with this subject in this post - (for which i made a plan.....)

But - what was it...yes!
You see the problem - those "Godlike" therapists for us are supposed to tell us who we are and many times give people a feeling that something is no ok with them...while in truth...it may not always be the case...

Therapists are JUST PEOPLE and they don`t know it all. I am sure there is a BUNCH of stuff that our science of psychology hasn`t discovered yet...And even if i went to the hospital....would they tell me what and who i am really....

But after that last meeting we all decided to F off and kick this creature out of our lives!
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Old Mar 22, 2011, 05:21 AM
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BTW i felt i was just coming ONE while hearing the voices of my other consciousness in my head ("alters") - and learning "their" skills and seeing flash backs and realizing my life.

This was WAY BEFORE any diagnosis!
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Old Mar 22, 2011, 07:42 AM
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as long as u are safe.
Im sorry i never saw ur post till yesterday. Very strange
Anyway i wish u all the best. And hope that u are ok
Thanks for this!
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