My T denies DD

I see you vascillating within your own posts...you are upset because what dx he is using (possibly to keep you from stigma?) as ego states because he won't admit it's DID (from what I'm getting from you) but you are saying you don't care about labels.

I'm not upset with this... just trying to help you see that if you do this here at PC you may very well be doing the same within the therapy session?

Maybe that unrest is two aspects of you that feel differently about the same thing? T is walking a good line with you, imo. It's good to hear he went to bat for you with the Pdoc. You are absolutely right that meds don't usually help with "those types of voices" and in fact can make things confusing even moreso, imo.

Why not go ahead and tell the T that you want to act on the feeling that you do suffer with DID. What would that mean to you? You obviously sense that you have suffered more than one near/fear death trauma...so it wouldn't be out of line. T cannot give you that dx, as I said, until he is sure of at least two definitive separate personality states...but you can say it.

You seem in real conflict about the dx, even though in a way you don't want it to matter...I'm just suggesting that you take the other side of it--even temporarily-- admit that it sure could be true and answer a lot of questions...and see if that causes the same conflict?

Keep the T. T is definitely a keeper if you ask me. (A strong T that will "win" a conversation with a Pdoc is more than worth his salt. It could also come in handy in the future, as the PDoc may need to admit you to hospital for your own safety, but then allow the T to visit and counsel with you...T needs an MD to do that generally, or they can't see their patients in hospital. Just a thought.)

Do you keep a journal yet? Maybe you can work out your conflict about whether or not a diagnosis is required. Remember that PTSD is an anxiety disorder, so yes, a few of your "labels" already dissolve into one.

JD-

Well a lot has flourished over the last month. At first he really did believe it was "ego states". And that made me feel invalidated, because everyone has ego states. And my "ego states" were really effecting my life. Then I guess as the last month has gone by he has decided to start believing it was something out of the ordinary, everyday ego states. But he still won't "acknowledge" them very much and he has very little training in the area. Some of my "ego states" push him away and tell him to "stay away", "get away". And so he's done that. I only see him once a week for a very short period of time. Where as before I would see him for THERAPY at least twice a week and other things. But then other "ego states" are sad and have things to talk about and feel very hurt by his distance. And he doesn't seem to grasp that I can have two very different views. And so yeah the ones who don't like him are getting their way, but others are very sad and feel abandoned and they aren't as great at letting him know their feelings.

I do have some that deny the diagnosis in total. Because I DO journal, constantly! And I have for many years. And I'm glad I do. But they deny quite vehemently that I'm full of it and it doesn't exist.