[Lichenme]

Hi all!

I recently started with a new therapist and she has commented on me dissociating during our sessions. This has stirred up some inner turmoil. I am now beginning to question myself as to whether or not I am doing it randomly throughout the day. I often find myself stuck in "another" state that I don't know exactly how to describe. I have always just written it off as being a procrastination, but now thinking about it...I can't tell you where I am...it's not like I am doing anything else. I am just lost in another world. It takes a lot of "work" to stay in the present. Today I was "with" a group of people, however not "with" them mentally. They spoke to me and I had no idea what they were talking about. I felt embarrassed and came across as uninterested, which is not what I want to portray. I feel all alone. Can anyone relate? Am I in the right place?

[Korin]

This is a good place to be. Keep posting. Tell us more about what you are experiencing.

((Hug))

[Lichenme]

Korin - It's really difficult for me to describe what happens for me as everything that is appears "normal" to me. I just seem to struggle more then others remembering things how they actually happened, second guessing myself as to if conversations actually happened, time elapsing - only losing minutes, never really huge chunks of time. Reading something that I supposedly wrote, but it not "sounding" like it's something that I could have actually written, given my writing skills. Driving, but feeling like a passenger - "dreaming" out the window, sometimes coming to as the driver and wondering if I just went through a red light - becoming paranoid. Sometimes I feel like this empty shell walking around struggling to keep it real and act as if I know what I am talking about. Other times, I have no problem with knowing what I am talking about and feel pretty confident in myself. I often consider myself pretty intuitive and feel like I survive on on that.

It's helping to talk about it, just not sure if I am in the right place.

[Omers]

Yep, you are in the right place!
Welcome!

Hello
Maybe you wasn't interested in what they were saying. I feel paranoid sometimes as well. When I'm out I think people are talking about me.

[lunarpariah]

Originally Posted by Lichenme

Korin - It's really difficult for me to describe what happens for me as everything that is appears "normal" to me. I just seem to struggle more then others remembering things how they actually happened, second guessing myself as to if conversations actually happened, time elapsing - only losing minutes, never really huge chunks of time. Reading something that I supposedly wrote, but it not "sounding" like it's something that I could have actually written, given my writing skills. Driving, but feeling like a passenger - "dreaming" out the window, sometimes coming to as the driver and wondering if I just went through a red light - becoming paranoid. Sometimes I feel like this empty shell walking around struggling to keep it real and act as if I know what I am talking about. Other times, I have no problem with knowing what I am talking about and feel pretty confident in myself. I often consider myself pretty intuitive and feel like I survive on on that.

It's helping to talk about it, just not sure if I am in the right place.

This was a very good post. I often come across much of what you were writing about. Especially the driving, in fact I discussed that very thing with my T a couple weeks ago. I continue to find it amazing I never break the law or have wrecks while driving

[Lichenme]

Originally Posted by Omers

Yep, you are in the right place!
Welcome!

Thank you for the welcome. Also thanks for the reassurance that I am in the right place.

[Lichenme]

Does dissociative disorder get worse over time? Does it get better? How have you guys managed your own struggles?

[Korin]

Like a lot of things we do or work on, things often get worse before they get better.

It’s like your brain needs time to get the message that this is all a part of the healing process.

But having a positive attitude and lots of loving support helps make the journey easier - as does taking care of yourself.

((Hug))

[possum220]

Your new therapist sounds pretty cluey. Why dont you print out what you wrote to us and give it to them.................let them know what your experiences are?.

[KarmaharleyJD33]

Hello There,

I have exprienced all these same things myself and it always helps one to keep a journal to write in everyday that way we can communicate with ourselves about our feelings. This is a great outlet. We all need this in life whether we are one or many of the whole... Love to all. Jessica