My Hell

I need to tell you all about Ousted. Ousted is at least one of two alternate personalities that emerged when a traumatic event brought up years of repressed memories of spiritual and sexual abuse and shame.
Ousted carries all my anger and shame so that I can remain functional. She doesn't trust Christians and believes that every red letter in the Bible excludes her. She believes she is predestined to be hated by God and weeps over wanting the spiritual intimacy and fellowship that will always keep her in isolate rejection. She is the product of blind trust.

She can be incredibly abrasive and I am afraid that if I make friends with you all she will get mad. Please know in advance I mean nobody here ill will

Ousted and thechild, no worries. We can take some abrasivness. Ousted is hurt and has all the reason in the world to act like she does. We have a few similar ones though not"created" in the same way.

Pain and suffering can make others behave in what may seem like strange ways and have some strange beliefs. It’s just their way of dealing. When they begin to feel safer they will begin to make more sense.

((((Hug))))