[Claritytoo]

I just sent an email to my therapist with just thoughts in my head. After I had a huge headache, fear and trembling. I have never just let what ever thought was in my head come out. everything is filtered. I felt lost after but thinking about work brought me back. Right now I feel afraid I am just not certain what happened.

[hermeand]

fear of exposure maybe? Hope you are feeling better.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by hermeand

fear of exposure maybe? Hope you are feeling better.

Thanks for your reply, I feel better today than yesterday. I am trying to figure out if what happened is what happens when an alter comes out. My fear is that I might be insane. Or I actually have DID. I don't talk like these thoughts, I don't ever talk out loud like the thoughts last night. I am not sure what happened. I am not sure how it happened. The experience has caused me to be very anxious. I thought I might have a panic attack last night but I didn't. I also took my medication to help. I am still confused. Part of me wants it to happen again but another doesn't. Fear.

[roads]

It would scare me. What's this about a headache? Have you had those before? Do you know what caused it yesterday?

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by roadrunnerbeepbeep

It would scare me. What's this about a headache? Have you had those before? Do you know what caused it yesterday?

I don't get headaches, not ones like this. Sometimes I get passing headaches. They last a few minutes than go. I think it might be my sinuses. I did get migraines for two years after a car accident but I don't usually get headaches. Maybe is was from stress, but after writing my email I became upset. I started to cry and tremble and than I got a very heavy headache that wrapped around my head. That created more anxiety so I laid down and started to not think about it.

[Claritytoo]

have an appointment with my therapist on Friday, I am having anxiety over talking about the email I sent her. I already sent her an email asking that we not discuss it. But I am freaking out about it.