[beauflow]

OK so i have brought this up to T--- no real solution just she is happy that i acknowledge this slight dissociation and that I realize that in some cases it is not so good.

The night of my car crash last october i was rather enraged with things before driving, then when Driving I was like this Happy, Stupid High-- driving 40 mph in the fog--I crashed the car into a field and in to a road sign.....

Well first thoughts- Thank God No one else was around- for real.

Then next was I am so stupid, Need to punish myself, then I just am not used to driving in the fog which is true, but I keep having this back thought of that - no I sort of knew I should not have been doing 40, and i was just being "not here"..

I know people driving and dissociation is very common- i do realize that, almost ever morning when coming home I am not really here on earth but make it home, other mornings depending on the roads (ice and snow) i am here, and stressed, and going 20-30mph pulling over to let cars pass

but this night in last october- i keep wondering about,

Is it just that if another night or day of being so mad occurs, to just take a break before driving or thinking of driving so I am sort of in "the right state of mind to"

I am not dx with DID- but i thought maybe this would be the right place to write.

thanks all !

[Betty_Banana]

Originally Posted by beauflow

Is it just that if another night or day of being so mad occurs, to just take a break before driving or thinking of driving so I am sort of in "the right state of mind to"

It IS probably a good idea to take a break from driving until you're in the right state of mind.

I have a dissociative disorder, so most of the driving I do is not in the right state of mind. Haha. I know, it's not funny at all, and quite dangerous. But I do know when I shouldn't be behind the wheel at all, and I don't drive on those days and instead have someone else do the driving.

[unaluna]

Driving in fog is so unreal, though. Other cars are going practically normal highway speeds, so you're thinking, well, should I really be going only 15 mph? But you can't SEE freakin' ANYTHING, and you're scared hitless because you're driving along and then all of a sudden there IS another car, totally out of nowhere, and that's when you realize AGAIN how much you totally cannot see, and high beams only make it worse, or do they? And you're just trying to concentrate on following the edge of the road... It's one of the most taxing driving situations, no matter what your original state of mind is? But yeah, I think the way it puts you into a hyper aware state, there is no sound, and in a way you have no sight - there is no movement, unlike a blowing snowstorm or rainstorm, it's like you're just suspended in space somehow. But you have to super concentrate!